I Try

Today is parent/teacher conferences. I don’t know why, but these kinds of things get me very emotional. I guess it’s just a reminder of the fact that I am a mother. I have little boys that I am responsible for raising into decent, good men. It’s such a huge responsibility and I think so far i have done a good job. both of my boys are well behaved, respectful little boys. they do well in school. they are kind, considerate and helpful. Every time I go to the school to help in the class, or participate in events, I get compliments on how well behaved and kind my boys are.

I am proud of them.

I love being a mother. I love everything about it. I don’t know that I am the best mother, but I try to be the most mom to my boys. My kids are everything to me and there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for them. Sometimes I think to myself “What did i do to deserve to be the mother of these little guys?”

Of course, I have bad days and my occasional moments where i look at them and wonder “what was i thinking?” but those thoughts are few and far between.

It’s funny because people always ask me if i’m going to have more children, which is almost always followed by “aren’t you going to try for a girl?” (Annoying)  I suppose people think my life is not complete without a daughter. The fact is i am done having children and i am okay with not having a daughter. I think God knew what he was doing when he gave me boys. I’m not sure I could handle or be a very good mother to a daughter. I am content with my two sons.

I can’t wait to sit down with their teachers today and hear how they are doing, what their strengths and weaknesses are, to see the work they have done and how the interact with kids in their class.

so, yah, i’m not the best mother in the world. Apparently, I got the date wrong. Andrew’s conference is tomorrow.  

Oh well, I try. 😉