Feeling good like I know I should

I am feeling somewhat overwhelmed today.
There are bills to be paid, phone calls to make, errands to be run, decisions to be made, orgasms to be had.
Usually, it’s times like these that the panic sets in. It’s these moments that I start to freak out and worry if I’m going to have a panic attack.
It’s not the case today. I feel fine. I am taking things slowly, doing one thing at a time. I have already accomplished one of the things on the list (anyone care to guess which one? heh) And now I am ready to take the day on.
It’s so awesome to feel this good, to feel in control of my life again. In the back of my mind there is that fear that it’s only a matter of time before I come crashing down again, but as soon as I start having those thoughts, I push them aside and focus on all that is good in my life right now.
I haven’t cried in days. I haven’t had any urges to hurt myself. I have been getting out of the house, enjoying the world around me again and it feels so good.
Now, I just hope I feel this good after I get done paying this stack of bills staring me in the face, but I doubt it.
Can’t I just win the kottery already?!?!

12 thoughts on “Feeling good like I know I should

  1. Sonia

    Glad your having some good days girl =)
    I want to win the lottery too..
    Wouldn’t it be great not to have to have the worry of money on top of everything else =)

  2. Tracy

    See, the key to managing all of that is just PRIORITIZATION. Orgasms ALWAYS come first. ( and ideally, then again last. And sometimes, in the middle.)

  3. Buzz

    You sound so great! It’s wonderful and makes me feel better too. (And isn’t making me feel better REALLY what it’s all about? hehehe)

  4. Sunidesus

    Horrah for you! That’s wonderful.
    I’ve had a little bit of a relapse myself the last couple weeks, but am feeling better now so I’m back to stalking the blogosphere! Watch out!

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