Fear. And Peeing. But Mostly, Fear

Yesterday I was informed that I needed to have a biopsy on my uterus. Five minutes later, I was laying on my back having things inserted into my vagina.
And it hurt.
And I was scared.
And I started to cry because my husband wasn’t there to hold my hand.
And also because the doctor said the “C” word, as in “we need to check for cancer.”
She also said that she didn’t think it was cancer, but because of my symptoms she absolutely needed to check as a precautionary measure.
She informed me that my endocrinologist had ordered a bunch of tests that would probably have the answer to why I hadn’t had a period since March 26. (last week I thought I started, but it was just a little bit of blood when I wiped (TMi!) and then… nothing.) So, after I was done having the biopsy, I headed to the lab where they took 5 viles of blood for 10 different tests.
They also handed me just the little bit of comic relief that I need to help get me through these uncertain times…
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My Giant Jug O’ Pee.
That right there is a jug that I must pee in starting tomorrow morning for 24 hours and I must store it IN THE REFRIGERATOR. That went over really well with The Family. “Hey everyone! This right here is NOT a giant tub of orange juice, it is MY URINE, so please do not drink it, ok? Thanks!”
What the hell has happened to me?
Some of results from my blood work have already started to show up online and I did a little “Google” search of some of the results. BIG MISTAKE. However, after reading the results I’m hopeful it’s not cancer. But, the little voices in my head keep whispering “But what if…”
And for the first time since my health problems started (or were FINALLY DIAGNOSED) I am genuinely terrified. Not the kind of terrified where I flippantly say “OMG! I think I have cancer!” because I’m a paranoid freak, but the kind of terrified where I say “Oh my God, I could possibly have cancer.” Even if it’s NOT cancer, there are other things that could be wrong that are not good at all.
I’m angry and bitter that I wasn’t taken seriously for so long by my doctor. I can’t help but think that the delay in treatment is the reason I’m having so many problems now. I am asking God to help me let the bitterness go, but it’s really fucking hard when your body is messed up in ways that you never imagined and you don’t even recognize yourself in the mirror anymore.
I’ve cried today more than I’ve cried in a long time– the fear is overwhelming at times, but deep down I know that I’ll be fine.
Even if.

151 thoughts on “Fear. And Peeing. But Mostly, Fear

  1. AmyM

    I hope all goes well and you get a clean non-cancerous bill of health. I had pre-cancerous cells on my cervix once, which scared the beejeezus out of me. Good luck!
    Pee (ha!) Ess: Would it be entirely inappropriate if I said “Hey Y, nice jugs?” Probably, huh?

  2. ben

    Can I say “fuck” here? Cuz, well, that was the first thing that came to my mind.
    And not just “that’s a big fucking jug,” but fuck that’s scary.
    Showing my intellect…

  3. divrchk

    Good luck! I had to do the giant jug o’ pee thing when I was preggers with #2. I hope they gave you the little hat to put in the toilet to catch your pee so that you don’t have to actually pee into the jug. That would be difficult. Try to keep your spirits up and I’ll be sending good vibes your way.

  4. christine Gill

    I remember that feelling. I had an abnormal smear and that’s the only thing I could think of… Abnormal cells = cancer…. right ?
    I talked to my doc who said that i had to go in for a colposcopy to have the cells removed but they probably were not cancerous…
    PROBABLY ?????
    I’m sorry, probably is not a comforting word!!!
    I feel your pain, in fact (and this is dumb and foolish) I’ve put off having a pap smear for 5 years now cos i’m scared of having an abnormal one again… I should PROBABLY get over that.
    Take Care Honey Bunz xxxxx
    (And seriously, you need to stick some kind of giant label stating “PISS” on that bottle – just incase!

  5. Procrastamom

    You will so, so be fine because we all have our fingers crossed for you….and nothing bad can penetrate that barrier. Also? Nice pink shirt….gives you a great boob to waist ratio.
    (I said penetrate and boobs in the same comment. Winner!!!)

  6. Andrea

    Oh, Y, we are thinking of you as you anxiously await your results and some answers. I could just kick your doctors in the vaginas for not taking your concerns seriously A FREAKING LONG TIME AGO!
    We will be here for you!!!

  7. Beth Nixon

    I’ve been having back issues. Had a MRI. Found out there are disc problems and just *for fun* they found a spot on my kidney that now needs to be investigated.
    Although I’m still in the it might be and not it could be, I absolutely started crying when I read your post.
    But when I saw your giant jug of pee . . . well, then I started to laugh.
    Isn’t that what it’s all about . . . laughing through the tears? Thanks for sharing and giving us all some hope in the dark days.

  8. Susan

    I know that fear. 22 years ago, when I was 18 and both my parents were going through cancer treatments, I had those pre-cancerous cells on my cervix and had to have a biopsy. I was fine and never had a reoccurence, but boy did it scare the crap out of me at the time!!!
    Same with having a questionable breast exam (by my gynecologist). Again, my mom had had breast cancer, so by the time I heard the words, “You need a mammogram to check out this area,” in my mind, I had myself dead and buried! It all turned out to be nothing, but STILL. I live in constant fear of cancer, what with my family history.
    I’m sorry you’re feeling so bad and going through so much. ((HUGS))

  9. Rattling the Kettle

    The thing to do with these feelings you’re having is to bottle them up, and keep them deep, deep inside. You’ve got to ask yourself, WWHSD? (Homer Simpson.) He’d drink a lot of beer, that’s what.
    I’ll drink one for you tonight. Good luck with the tests.

  10. DogsDontPurr

    Nice jugs! (Well, two of them anyway!)
    I’ll be thinking all good thoughts for you. I wish they hadn’t waited so long to take you seriously. That is just wrong. I would really recommend switching doctors…or at least getting a second opinion. I’ve had three different doctors at Kaiser trying to figure out what my mystery illness is. All three had different opinions. One even wanted to start me on chemo therapy….without even having a diagnosis! So it really pays to ask for a second opinion if you have any doubts.
    Good luck. ((Big Hugs))

  11. AlwaysCurious

    Ugh I’m just wishing I had something I could say right now that would take it all away and make it okay and not scary.
    I’ve had the same issues as those above with PAPs. I had an abnormal one, then a normal colposcopy, then another abnormal PAP. 🙁 Now I have to go in twice a year to “keep an eye” on my cervix so “if it turns into cancer we can catch it fast.” SWEET. It’s hard to live with the what ifs and the waiting for test results and I’ve pretty much got myself so worked up that I’m afraid of going to the dentist now for fear that he’ll find gum cancer or something (despite the fact that I’ve never smoked or chewed… totally rational). I guess I just mean to say… I get it (kind of… as much as you can “get” someone else’s fear). And I am praying for you and your fam. And I also have faith that you WILL be okay. **Hugs**

  12. Cheryl

    Stay optimistic, Y. Even if….stay optimistic. I will be thinking good thoughts for you.

  13. sarah

    at least your tits look good.
    i’ve had several cancer scares. they’re never fun, but at least they’ve just been scares.

  14. catnip

    I once worked in an endocrinologist’s office so I got used to seeing giant jugs of pee. At least it’s not the 48 hour one where you have to fill two of them! Seriously though, I’ll be thinking about you an hoping for the best.
    ps. That shirt is just beautiful on you 🙂

  15. Jess

    You have a right to be angry with your doctor, he wasn’t listening to you. Lots of prayers and healthy thoughts coming your way. Maybe you should put a sign on the fridge that says, “Don’t drink the OJ!!!!!”

  16. ingrid

    i think that you are amazing to maintain your sense of humour. thinking of you and sending you all the positive vibes i can.

  17. amy

    Big giant hugs to get you through until they tell you it’s NOT CANCER. ‘Cause they will.
    And I had to do the jug-o-pee the last time I was pregnant. Nothing nastier than urine in the fridge. For 24 hrs.

  18. Tami W

    I know that there is nothing that is going to console you until you get the all clear from your doc…but please know that the power of prayer and the sending of good thoughts really works! We are circling the wagons around you so just settle in and let us know what you need to make this easier on you.

  19. marsha

    Wow how scary. I would have cried too. I hope it all turns out ok. I say this to everyone.. get tested for Celiac. It is severely under diagnosed in our country. Doctors don’t test for it. Most people who have it go undiagnosed for 10 years being diagnosed and test and tested for everything under the sun. so when someone is sick a lot and has a lot of stuff and it seems never ending I always say why not at least try and get the test. Celiac is a autoimmune disorder which is cured entirely by eliminating wheat from the diet. Which has no side effects. Good luck to you.

  20. Black Hockey Jesus

    Cancer is a whore I fucked last night & I didn’t even pay. I just took my $40 and left.
    Wow. That was aggressive. But really. My wife is going through tht SAME EXACT THING & we’re waiting for the results to come back and she’s an oncology nurse & all spooked out.
    She’s spooked, nervous, and teary-eyed but I convert all that shit into anger like: Cancer is a mountain & I’ll chop it down with the edge of my hand. Cancer’s a whiny bitch.
    Psst. Tough guys are the most scared guys.

  21. Sarah

    I’ve done a couple of those 24 hr urine things (hello, kidney stones!). Why do they give you such enormous bottles? And I’m in the UK, so this conspiracy is WORLDWIDE.
    It’s so ridiculous at the end of the 24 hrs, with your tiny bit of piddle sloshing around at the bottom of the bottle. Mind you, I’d like to meet someone who could fill one of those things in a day.
    Fingers crossed for the very best outcome for you.

  22. girlplease

    You’re going to be ok. And IF (big IF) you get something back called “Cervical Dysplasia” DO NOT FREAK. It does not mean the big “c” at all.
    And that’s it. It is confirmed. All 9 billion WebMD and other medical site traffic is solely from 2 IP addresses:
    yours and mine.
    It will be ok. I’m sorry you went through that. I’m terrified of 7″ needles in my stomach, through my fat pad, through my muscle and through my uterus while trying to avoid the bambino so I get the fear.
    I’m aiming for a nervous breakdown by July 7 (appt is July 23).
    I much rather pee forever, even if it means in an alley like I did last week (and of course blogged about)

  23. Amity

    At least you seem to be getting some answers! I hope they all turn out to be good ones.

  24. Kristy

    Stay away from google! Far, far away! Take some more beautiful photos, instead. Wouldn’t that be better than driving yourself crazy with the shit that pops up on google?
    Thoughts and prayers are with you.
    You look absolutely beautiful, by the way.

  25. Erika Jurney

    Gah, terrible! I’m sorry for all the crap you’re going through right now. Please take solace and comfort in the fact that your tatas are amazing.

  26. Hol

    Thinking of you, and praying.
    Dr. Google is an arse hat, so stay away from him. I’ve freaked myself out many times after visiting Google… hmm do I have IBS? No it’s appendicitis, no my gallbladder, a hernia?

  27. Jennifer

    Wow. That’s a jug that would make long-distance truckers jealous! Also? Is intimidating. I would be anxious that I wouldn’t be able to perform and fill it to capacity.
    I’ll be thinking of you and am anxious to hear about what’s going on. My mother has been through breast cancer twice (beating that bitch’s ass both times!) and I think the worst part for everyone is the not knowing. Fingers crossed that you get some answers soon!

  28. Becky

    Now, normally I’d say something stupid and flip here, but I don’t think that I want to right now. In lieu of that brevity, I will tell you honestly that I am thinking of you and hoping everything will be okay.

  29. Melissa

    Just remember: (1) you will get through this and (2) we’re with you every step of the way. Positive thoughts/prayers sent your way.

  30. Y

    It’s pretty special to have the support of the people who read this silly blog. At the risk of sounding Really Cheesy… I feel lucky to have the support of all of you. Thank you so very much.

  31. Hazel

    I am so sorry you are having these problems. I have had the biopsy thing done twice and it was not pleasant AT ALL!
    And the pee jug…I’m a professional at that one. Just wait until you get to carry the full jug into the office with everyone looking at you. Then, the lady at the window says in a loud voice “don’t put your jug on the counter!” Yeah, lots of fun.
    Good thoughts and prayers go out to you.

  32. ela

    I am sorry you are having to go through all of this uncertaintity (SP!) You are in my thoughts and prayers – when I can remember (I am an aging older mother of a newborn – HA!)
    Know though – you are never ALONE!
    gentle hugs!

  33. jessica

    i am so effing pissed at your doctor for not paying attention in the first place!!!
    a few years ago i had an abnormal pap. so i had to have a colposcopy. that was normal. then another abnormal pap. then another normal colposcopy. since the paps werent clearing, i had to have cryo on my cervix… i cant even describe that pain. now, paps are all normal. 3 years of that misery and fear of th c word… but it’s all better now. so i know what you’re going through.
    hang in there, y. there are lots of prayers and hugs being sent your way!

  34. Mrs. G.

    OK, am I the only one who thinks you should have let your family figure out the orange juice thing the hard way? What a post that could have been.
    Just kidding. Sending you healthy vibes as we speak.

  35. T

    you do look quite amazing – even if you are holding a giant jug you’re supposed to piss in. *shudders*
    I think we’ve all been through this, or known someone who has. We survive, even when it’s the worst case scenario stupid fucking “c” word.
    ((BIG HUGS))

  36. Kait

    This really sucks, Y. You need a break from all this crap, for reals.
    If it makes you feel better, I think you look absolutely terrific in this picture!

  37. Beth

    Oh Y!
    Sending you much internet support and prayer!!!
    I agree that you look fab in the picture, and hey that counts for something, dammit!
    Hang in there!

  38. Susan

    I used to be a marketing rep of sorts, (you know, the ones that get into the dr.’s office ahead of you because we bring cookies)? Once I had to turn in my big 24 hour pee jug before I spent the entire day making cookie calls. I put everything in the same ice chest in the backseat. Perhaps a little leakage happened. Perhaps some people I didn’t like got some very special cookies.
    Hope that was wrong enough and gross enough to distract you for a few seconds. Stay away from Google AND the oj. I’m feeling for you and hoping you get relief very soon.

  39. JesseezMom

    Hi Y! My prayers are with you!
    The first thought when you said no period for awhile is PCOS. There is a really good site soulcysters.com
    Eating accordingly and exercise has helped me so much. I love your blog!

  40. kris

    I don’t think there will be an “even if”. I just went through this and am going back for a second biopsy next month (OWWW MOMMY!!). Sorry you had to go through that alone, sucks out loud. My best friend held my hand and REMAINED STATIONED at the HEAD of my “bed”… no sharin’ the privates with friends.
    Anyway. I will be saying a prayer that the even if never comes to be and that no one drinks your pee.

  41. Erin

    Is it weird to de-lurk to offer hugs? Well, here I am, take my hugs ((( )))! Well wishes and happy thoughts sent your way.

  42. chris

    I have had a year of health issues and tests and scares, and nothing showed. My white blood count is overly high and had bone marrow test, 10000 blood tests, iron IV treatments, and I still am just “being watched”. Sending you thoughts of care, and hoping you find out what is wrong but also that it is nothing life-threatening. . .

  43. Rachael

    I’m so sorry, it’s all so scary. Although having a jug of pee in the fridge is funny. My husband had to do that once. So weird. I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers.

  44. Angella

    I had to do the Jug o’Pee when pregnant with Graham. I feel your pan on that particular issue.
    Praying for you!

  45. Jessie

    I’m very sorry you’re going through this. I know EXACTLY how you feel. Except for the hashieatmyassis. It’s not any fun to feel like the problem patient because you want to know what’s going on in your body.
    Hoping and praying for good results.

  46. alice

    many good thoughts to you (and your jug o’pee.) And though I know you’re not thinking about this right now – damn, that shirt makes your boobs look awesome! You’re taking care of yourself, and you’re looking good while doing it – whatever this thing is, you’ll kick its ass.

  47. Suzy Q

    OMG, I JUST WENT THROUGH ALMOST THE EXACT SAME THING. My pap results were bad. The “only 1% of pap smears have this type of result” type of bad. The endometrial/uterine biopsies where I thought I was going to die from the pain (I was alone, too). The umpteenth ultrasound.
    The one and a half weeks of now knowing if I had cancer or not. Gah.
    I cried like a fucking baby when I found out what my pap results could be. I had a very bad couple of days and nights thinking OMFG CANCER!!!!! But, you know what? Maintaining that kind of high-level angst is exhausting. Oh, I still had an ever-present level of anxiety until my results came back, and my work suffered, and I was (and still am) in pain, but somehow, I just couldn’t keep that same level of OH MY GOD I’M DYYYYYING for more than 48 (ok, 72) hours.
    I don’t have cancer, so the results say. BIG whew! But, I DO have what I refer to as an Alien Baby growing inside me. It hasn’t yet been definitively identified but is probably a polyp. It has a “feeding tube” per the ultrasound, which sounds gross, and is gross. Having never had an actual human baby, I’m not at all sure if this is what I want my legacy to be.
    I also have ovarian cysts (but I have had polycystic ovary disease – NOT syndrome – for 20 years, so that’s no big surprise). I may also have endometriosis (again) and scar tissue or adhesions inside. You just never know what you’re going to find inside. Not everything can be diagnosed through ultrasound or other means. Sometimes it takes a look-see.
    I am having multiple surgeries on July 17. It will be my fourth multi-surgery since 1988.
    I am not scared.
    I know that probably sounds insane to you, Yvonne, but, really, I’m not scared. Even though I work in a field investigating medical mishaps, and the surgery will take place at one of my client’s facilities, I am not scared. I have faith in my doctor. She’s operated on me once before (when she was pregnant!) and it was fine. Faith in your doctor is VERY important, to me.
    My surgery may turn out to be very extensive, and I am prepared for that. I think.
    Fear of your mortality is a very human response, especially in light of not knowing what the fuck is going on. You’re in my thoughts, dear. Please keep us updated.

  48. margalit

    Um, Dr Google is often an idiot. Do not trust him. Google no more!
    And you know what? Every time you post about your health issues, I start seeing dollar signs. Malpractice dollar signs. This guy… I don’t like him one little bit. Putting you off for so long tells me that he’s not only fat phobic, but that he has little to no respect for his women patients.
    I’ve had a colcoscopy (twice) and while they aren’t pleasant, they are OFTEN for naught. You might have what they call precancerous growths that they can cauterize and that’s the end of them. I’ve had that. It wasn’t fun, but it was a lot better than the big C.
    Also, I really hope they are testing you for PCOS. Even though you haven’t had trouble getting pregnant in the past, you have other symptoms of PCOS, and you know, those hormones can flip on a dime any time they want.
    Don’t you just LOVE being a girl?

  49. Kay

    I too have done the pee jug. Good times! The best was walking around the hospital to bring it back and handing it off! WHEE!
    Hope it isn’t the big C. I have had that scare many times and it is no picnic! If it is cervical pre cancer, it is easy to take care of, I am hoping it is nothing! ((HUGS))

  50. Walking With Scissors

    Googling symptoms is the equivalent of reading “What to Expect When You’re Expecting” while pregnant. Gives you far too many things to think/worry about. I will be thinking about you and I sincerely hope that it isn’t the “c” word. Also, nice jug!

  51. Beth at I Should Be Folding Laundry

    Life has such a funny way of making you feel uneasy, raw, exposed, scared, unsure. When it seems like not that long ago everything in our worlds seems just fine. It’s so hard to comprehend. and it sucks.
    Y – I have no words for you, except that I am praying for your STRENGTH during these days to come.
    And I also pray that you never accidentally pee on your hand instead of in the bottle. Not that that happened to me this past January. *cough*

  52. mary

    Oh dear. I advise against consulting with Dr. Google although I do it all.the.time.
    My thoughts, good vibes, prayers are all heading in your direction.

  53. Shari

    I have read your blog for a long time, but this is the first time that I have commented. Your posts have both made me laugh, and made me cry. I can relate with you on so many levels at times, I really enjoy reading you. I have major thyroid issues as well, and it was comforting reading some of what you were going through (sorry), knowing that I wasn’t alone in it all. I’m not going to say that I totally know what you are going through, but I can relate to some. I am truly sorry for what’s going on right now. I am one of those prayers, and I will be praying for you as you go through this.
    Thanks for always being willing to share your heart and where you are at, even when it’s not fun.

  54. Edie

    I had to pee in a jug for 24 hours once but now I don’t remember why. That was 21 years ago when I was pregnant. I also had a uterine biopsy and OUCH! Didn’t help that the doctors hands were roughly the size of cabbages. Also had the abnormal pap.
    I stopped using Dr. Google a long time ago when I went in to see what kinda over the counter yeast infection medication worked best and came out thinking I had some disease I couldn’t pronounce that would cause my uterus to shrivel up and fall out within the week. Bad. Bad.
    I’ll be thinking of you Y. I know how scary this kinda stuff can be. I’m glad you’re keeping a good attitude about the whole thing. I think you’re an incredibly strong lady.

  55. justme

    keeping the finger crossed and will be thinking of you. I just recently went through all of this this year. Isn’t it strange that we freak the heck out about every small thing, thanks to the help of google lol, and are much calmer about the bigger things! Sending you a big hug!

  56. Kyla

    I hope you get real answers and they provide treatment that will make you feel like yourself again.
    I know that bitterness…KayTar’s original pediatrician assured us everything was just fine…I even have the paper he signed to that effect…but it wasn’t fine at all. If we ever get a diagnosis, I’m sending him a letter…but I’ve been waiting to send it for 2 full years now and still no diagnosis. Sigh.

  57. jen from boston

    Thinking of you and wishing I was there to hold your hand.
    You know, not that I’m dying for a jug o my mom’s pee in my fridge, but you’d think they’d be grateful for the heads up. Because that is love right there. heh.

  58. Pam

    It is good that you are finally being taken seriously, I’m so glad for that and will be thinking good thoughts for you.

  59. Christine

    I love Black Hockey Jesus
    “Cancer is a whore I fucked last night & I didn’t even pay. I just took my $40 and left.”
    Keeping you in my thoughts! You’ll get through this…EFFING Doctors!

  60. Kim

    Hoping it goes well. If it makes you feel any better, I am sure it won’t but, I didn’t have a period from January until June this year. I went through the tests, ultrasounds and everything was relatively normal.
    Thinking of you.

  61. Lara

    Oh, wow. I’m new to your blog, so maybe it’s weird for a stranger to say I hope everything turns out okay, but I do. Hope everything turns out okay, that is.
    And also: holy shit, that is a large jug.

  62. christina

    For so much drama you look amazing in the pee pic! I’m sure that everything will be fine…lost of love and good vibes to you!

  63. Linda

    I will be praying for you and know that God is with you. We love you girl
    Linda in Miszippi

  64. Bethiclaus

    Y, I’m so sorry this is happening. I will be thinking good thoughts for the remainder of your test results.
    I had to do the pee collections when I was pregnant with my first. And I had to do it on a day when I had class. So I had to bring my Jug O’Pee with me to class in a cooler of ice.
    So when it comes to the pee, know that it could be more mortifying.

  65. JenniferB

    I hope you do get the care and medical expertise you need (and should have had all along) and that your family continues to be super supportive and loving!

  66. PeetsMom

    Jug of Pee.
    Something doesn’t sound so good there. Jug? no…
    Pee? well, sort of…
    JUG of PEE – yes, that’s it. Massive quantity of pee. In the fridge. Yes, that’s most certainly it.
    Your sense of humor will get you through the worst of times – give your kids lots of hugs too!!
    Hang in there!!!

  67. Clementine

    Y., I’m so sorry this is happening. I’m thinking of you and sending you good thoughts. In the meantime, good luck filling up your Giant PeePee Bottle!

  68. Tracy

    *raises hand*
    I know where your periods went. Apparenty MY uterus stole them, since I”m now having one every two weeks. Also, I’m not diagnosed with Hashimoto’s, just underperforming thyroid – so – what would you rather have with your thyroid problem – a period every 2 weeks, or not at all? Cuz, I’m just thinking, not at all sounds kinda nice.

  69. Tracey

    Why the hell did Eve take the freakin’ apple. I have too much bleeding and had to have procedures done to help that out. That doesn’t compare to what you are going through, though. Warm and healing thoughts and wishes sent your way!

  70. norm

    Hey, I had to do the giant jug ‘o’ pee, too! Years ago. It turned out to be I have protein-leaky kidneys for no apparent reason, so no big deal. Except every 10 years or so a GP takes a look at a urine test and goes OMG PROTEIN-PEE and I explain I did the giant jug ‘o’ pee test and everything was fine so they leave me alone for another decade.
    Damn cute picture, too. You are one lovely woman. Get well soon!

  71. The Aitch

    I am very sorry and sad that you’re terrified. I know this is all very scary. I wonder if you would have been taken more seriously to begin with had your doctor been a woman? What did they ever found out about the PCOS? Do you have it? Not have it? I am hoping and praying for you this week Y that they get to the bottom of things and it’s something easy and fixable and not cancer. Love you!

  72. The Aitch

    Oh, P.S. Can they lab give you a hat to take home? So you can pee in that and empty it in the jug??!!

  73. Kelly

    I’m keeping you in my thoughts and hope all goes well. Take Care (and I love hearing you sing and Gabby! That one particular video of her singing her numbers so dramatic made me laugh on quiet a bad day, so thanks for that! )

  74. Velma

    Trust you to find humor in the pee jug, Y. (Although I love that they made it ORANGE! How many unsuspecting family members have they tricked with the ORANGE pee jug?) I’m sending good vibes and hope the tests give some information they can use to fix you right up.

  75. Amy M

    OMG, i’ve had to do the pee in a jug thing. and my best friend just had to do it as well. it’s almost mortifying for some reason. i think it’s the whole refrigerator thing. for what it’s worth, i still think you look great. and try not to stress about all the tests, we’ll all face it with you when we get the results.

  76. kim

    Delurking to say that I had a uterine biopsy done last week – and yeah, it REALLY hurt, and my doc mentioned the scary “C” word (is that really necessary?) too.
    Here’s hoping for good results!

  77. kel

    Love the jug o pee. When I was very, very pregnant I was diagnosed with pre-ecampsia. They wanted me to do a 12 hour urine test (which was over night)…and keep it in the fridge. Ha! Not only did I have to deal with getting up all night to go, but our bedroom is upstairs and the fridge is downstairs…and I was at full term. That was hardly going to work. It was ridiculous. I kept the jug in a cooler in the bathroom. By the way, it’s way easier to go in a cup, then pour it in the jug…if you hadn’t figured that out.
    Hang in there…

  78. ster

    bring that jug to blogher when you’re done with it. we’ll all pee in it and you can take a little bit of us all home with you. 🙂
    hugs.. kisses.. boob grabbing.. and more hugs

  79. Kelley

    If I was clever and shit I would know how to put in one of those eye bugging out smiley things. But I am not.
    Hoping that it is nothing and you can laugh and laugh about the time you stored a jug of piss in the fridge.

  80. Lorrie

    Do not panic my friend! My gyn scared me to death in the fall of 2006 when I had a “complicated cyst” in my ovary. She removed all my lady parts and all was well. Well, except for the fibromyalgia it kicked off. But that ain’t fatal, and it’s fixable.
    I’ll keep reading no matter what. Why my blog is just a barrel of laughts lately, what with my mom dying a slow death from Alzheimer’s and all. Good readers, like good friends (they are both) stick with you through the hard times.

  81. supertiff

    would it be inappropriate to mention that you look really thin in that picture?
    also, i haven’t had my period since march 5th.
    so, i don’t know, we’re like non-menstrual twins or something.
    sending positive vibes your way…

  82. Jakki

    Please dont hit me but you are doing EXACTLY what you can and are suppossed to do and that is turning to God. I look at this picture here and I’m like that woman is STRONG…if she can be that strong about storing pee in the refrigerator..she’s a whole lot stronger than she gives herself credit for…Go ahead and cry. I cant think of many people who could go through this without crying.
    ummmm you talk about gaining wieght but lady…I see a wasteline there….

  83. Jess

    I have read that your thyroid can totally jack with your menstral cycle.
    That being said, I hope and pray all your test come back negative and that no one accidently drinks your pee in the middle of the night.

  84. lani

    While I’m hoping everything turns out ok for you, Y, I’m also hoping you can get some answers to why you’re feeling so terrible. Hugs.

  85. SarahDragon

    Just remember… “we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” Romans 8:28

  86. Preita

    I’m so sorry. I hope that everything turns out for the better. It is scary & many doctors do not take us seriously. I remember going to my doctor because I hadn’t had my period in 6 months and was trying to conceive. They told me to wait it out. A year after that I was diagnosed with PCOS. It’s not life threatening, but I would really rather have that year of my life back.
    Best wishes!

  87. carlyarly

    It amazes me how you write a very serious blog, get everyone concerned, and then don’t respond for days.

  88. Amy

    I got my bones checked out a few years ago and had to do the 24 Hours of Pee thing…so very enjoyable. I was worried about catching every last little bit, because what if I didn’t and the molecule I missed was the ONE with what they wanted to know in it?! After a while I realized the whole idea with the 24 Hrs of Pee was to measure my calcium. Because when you think pee, you think calcium??
    The best part was walking through the halls of the hospital with my pee jug in a brown paper bag. Like everyone there didn’t know what was in there anyway. 🙂
    I’m keeping you in my thoughts!! Hopefully everything will be fine because, come on, don’t you have enough going on??!?!

  89. Beverly

    Don’t worry too much. It’s usually nothing.
    Easier said than done, right?
    By the way, my son does the “jug o’pee” twice a year…for the past three years…and we always get a good laugh from the possibilities that come with storing pee in the fridge.

  90. Karen

    They saying goes God never gives us more then we can handle right? I guess he thinks you are one strong women. I hope all this turns out ok. Postive thoughts coming your way.

  91. Izzy

    Everyone’s raving about your boobs but I? Have been in their presence THREE times. Am lucky 🙂
    Seriously, I’m so shocked to hear about this cancer scare. My wish for you is that it’s not cancer at all (well duh, of course!) but hope the situation helps to get to the root of your health issues. I’m crossing my fingers and repeating little good health mantras on your behalf.
    Much love and good thoughts for you. xoxoxo

  92. angje

    I don’t know if you remember me, Y, but I am a faithful reader and we have lots in common. I just foound out that

  93. angje

    I don’t know if you remember me, Y, but I am a faithful reader and we have lots in common. I just foound out that need a radical hysterectomy. Apparently, I have fybroids abound. My uterine biopsy came back clean. I’m now waiting to have some kind of crazy sonogram and a ovarian biopsy. I have teenage boys and can’t imagine how to organize thier lives without me. Prayers are needed.

  94. Andrea Lemon

    You don’t know me … and I don’t know you. I stumbled upon your blog while my computer system is in crash mode at work and “they are fixing it”.
    Have you checked you hormones? I was in the same situation where I stopped having periods. And the hormones from my Birth Control were sending them into Pre-Menoposal State. I was 24 when that happened. It still has taken me a while to get my hormones back to a state where they are “normal” but it is a lot better than not having periods.
    Also, for a while, I went to normal doctors who did the same thing with me. All of the tests etc. None of them did the hormone test. But once I got off of birth control things changed.
    Feel free to contact me with any questions. I wish you the best.

  95. Amanda B

    I’m sorry you’ve had to go through all this. The tests are sucky. Waiting for the tests is extra sucky. Waiting for Doctor’s to call or an appointment is almost worse. The first thing I thought when I saw your picture was “how cute does she look, holding her jug o’ pee”.

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