i've been doing some blog surfing today, reading blogs i've never read before and now i'm wondering why any one would even waste their time reading mine!!? man, i'm so boring and don't really have anything important to say. i feel so insignificant now.

the reason i started this blog was to have an outlet. i didn't care if anyone ever came to read it. however, people have come and they do read and i have met some of the most wonderful people. some of them i have even grown to love and consider them my friends. they are amazing people that i would have never met were it not for this blog.

but i don't understand why any of you find me interesting enough to come back over and over again. i see the stuff that is out there and it's amazing. i don't have anything important to say, nothing deep or profound. maybe i make you laugh once in a while, but other than that, there's not much here. it's just me blabbing about my unimportant life and thoughts. (sidenote: i am NOT fishing for compliments here!!!) i just see what's out there and i realize, i am not unique, hell, i am not even a good writer, infact, i suck and i know it! i am not entertaining. so, i wonder why anyone would read my blog on a regular basis.

i will continue to write here, even if no one came to read, because it's a great outlet for me. but i'm grateful you do stop by and i am even more grateful for the support you have given me when i've written about something that is troubling me. your words and emails have been invaluable and have given me so much to think about. some of you have even written to me with your own experiences and it's been so helpful to me. words can not express how much your words have meant. so, although i didn't start this thing to make friends or with the intention of anyone reading it, i am glad that you do stop by and read and even take the time to leave comments, or send me emails and i hope you continue to do so, although, i'll never understand why you do!