words can not express how awful i feel right at this moment. i went outside to get ethan from the bus stop and he is wearing this little vest he made at school. he was supposed to wear this for his thanksgiving program that i thought was on friday. wrong. turns out it was today and i missed it. i started to cry like a baby, so ethan walks over to try to make me feel better and he says, "it's ok mommy, all the other parents were there, just you weren't, so don't worry." wahhhhhhhh that made me feel even worse. i wanted to see him up there singing his little heart out. i wanted him to see me there smiling at him and clapping for him after he was done. i wanted to take pictures of him with the vest on, that he painted so beautifully with his little hands. i can't believe how torn up i am over this. i really need to get my stuff together and be a better mommy to my boys. this is so unlike me. i used to be on top of everything when it came to me kids and lately, i've been out of it. well this was a slap in the face to wake the hell up and get with the program. damn, i said program, i missed ethan's thanksgiving program! if you could see me right now, you'd know how bad i feel. my poor lil boy. i wasn't there for him. it's going to take a while for me to get over this one.
*update*
seems i didn't miss it after all, yesterday was just a rehearsal. my son didn't know that, he thought that was the performance! do you know how happy i was when the teacher told me that? i *am* a good mommy, dammit!
I had a similar situation with my little man. We were late getting him to the bus stop on his very first day to school. Now he is paranoid about missing the bus every day.
We all got up late on Monday after having a late Sunday night. We let him sleep and miss school. It was easier than explaining to him that he missed the bus again.
Don't worry. Kids don't take that stuff as hard as we parents do...