I'm kind of a wreck tonight. You see, I've kept Gabby in the bassinett all of this time because I want her right next to me at night. I realise she's just too big to sleep in there anymore, so tonight, I thought I was strong enough to put her in her crib... turns out I'M NOT. I miss her so badly, I can't sleep. I keep getting up to check on her, to make sure she's ok. I hate that I can't hear her breathing, I hate that I can't sit up in bed and see her laying right there next to me. I'm scared I won't hear her when she cries. Infact, I'm so afraid of not being able to hear her, I won't turn the fan on, and I can't sleep without the fan on. The ridiculous thing about this? Her room is right next to mine.
It's only a matter of time before I take my pillow and go sleep on the floor next to her crib.







I hated putting my babies into their own rooms, too. I still use a monitor for my daughter who is turning THREE this Saturday. I just like to listen to the little noises she makes while she sleeps. One of these days, she's going to be like, "Um, Mom, can you give me a little PRIVACY?!!"