People often tell me I'm too hard on myself.
I'm not quite sure what that even means. When I say things about myself that aren't very nice, I am just saying that which I know to be true.
I've been upset about my ability, motivation and dedication to lose this weight. I have this "why even bother" attitude, which is only contributing to the problem.
"Why even bother eating a salad instead of a burger, you'll never lose this weight anyway, so...JUST EAT THE BURGER!!"
What the hell is wrong with me? Why am I doing this to myself over and over again?
Today I decided it was time to "get real". Again. For the 239858th time. I can't give up on myself. I want to live a long life and? I want to be cute again. Is that ok with you?
I had my son take my picture a few minutes ago. I wasn't happy with what I saw, infact, I was kind of pissed. My husband pointed out that I look NOTHING like I did in the picture I took of myself in October and told me I should look at how far I've come, not how far I have to go...
So, yeah, I guess I've made some progress, but not as much as I COULD have and SHOULD have made. I'm still overweight. I still don't recognize myself in that picture.
But it's something and all I can do is move on from here, right?
Move on from here while and putting down the burger. And the frap's with extra caramel. And the bean dip and corn chips. And the chocolate frosting out of the container. And the curly fries with ranch dressing.
And so on and so forth...







Sweetpea,
You look great. That is something to be proud of!Now come here and we'll get our 2% lattes and walk by the beach.