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May 20, 2005
She thinks she's SO HOT.

If you've been wanting to ask me why my writing has been sucking more than usual lately, THAT RIGHT THERE would be the answer.

My sole purpose in life at this moment is to keep that girl from falling and cracking her head open. Also? To keep the TV from falling on top of her, because her new favorite thing to do is stand in front of the TV and shout at it.

I wish you could see it, it's hilarious. The girl thinks she's all that.

THAT would be her second favorite thing to do. Run/crawl away from me. She'll put something in her mouth and take the hell off. I think it's her way of helping me lose weight. She's like "Chasing me burns calories! You can work off that soy white mocha, mommy!"

Good times. Good times.

I was talking to SJ a few minutes ago and I admitted something to her I never thought I'd admit.

I was actually feeling sad about the decline of this blog. I notice less people are commenting and reading. And it's totally obvious why.

The Suck. (Please.. do not tell me that I don't suck. PLEASE? I'm actually ok with it, but sometimes? It makes my ego hurt a little.)

Also? I don't have time to be "involved" like I used to. I read the blogs on my list everyday, but I don't comment because a) I don't have time, b) I SUCK, people. I can't think of anything intelligent or funny to say. All I can think is "Gabby is going to be awake in FIVE MINUTES. I wonder what she's going to find to stick in her mouth next?

Infact? I actually resorted to pretending to be a troll in the comments of a blog. Not an anonymous troll who says mean things and acts like an ass, don't start sending hate mail.

I think we should have a "Comment like a troll day" here on my blog. That way? We can all suck, together.

Or R U 2 scArEd 2 BE A TroLlz
U SuX
L8R!111!

*UPDATE*

Ok. I've given this a little more thought.

If you've been reading this blog for longer than a week, you've probably picked up on the fact that I have "issues" with my self image. I've been told by a therapist I have an "extremely distorted image of self."

I tend to focus on all that is wrong with me. I see myself as fat, ugly, not very smart. Basically, "lesser" than everyone else.

This annoys people who know me. Infact, some people don't talk to me anymore because of it. People get angry with me, pissed off even. People think I'm just fishing for compliments, because, apparently? I could NEVER REALLY BELIEVE those things about me.

I've worked on myself a LOT. I've tried to rid myself of those self condeming thoughts and for the most part, I'm succeeding. My dad always tells me those are lies that satan tells me so I'll hate myself and never believe that God could actually love me.

Anyway, I'm trying to put those thoughts aside and keep them in check. But every once in a while, something happens and I get all down on myself again and I start thinking "you really do suck, and you always will suck and you'll never be good enough"

See? It's not even about the blog. The blog isn't that important to me, I know it's place. It's about me not feeling like I'm good enough.

Dumb, I know, roll your eyes, go ahead, I don't mind.

The difference between the old, unhealthy me is that I'd let stupid things like this get me down. Now? I can put it into context and move on.

There. I feel better now.

Posted by Y at May 20, 2005 09:53 AM
Comments

Hey, I still click your link every day! You do not suck!

Oh wait, I'm supposed to be a troll. Waaah. I can't even be a troll. I'm too nice. Dammit! (taking my lameness away now.)

Posted by: lex at May 20, 2005 10:24 AM

Hey...you may feel like you've LOST readers, but you've recently PICKED me up, so there....

I love your writing...your honest style...your love for your kids...your self sacrifice....

I recently had a surprise of my own...who is now 10.5 months old and WALKING...*wow*...so I love and identify with your utter awe that you even have a new baby in your life!

troll...nah...I can't be...I'm just a nice chick in the midwest.

Posted by: Chewie at May 20, 2005 10:44 AM

No, you don't HAVE to be a troll. That was just a gimmick to get comments.

I have no problem admitting that.

A girl or a boy? Yours is just a little older than mine. And yeah, there's something really special about them because THEY WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

YOu know what I mean?

Posted by: y at May 20, 2005 10:47 AM

I think your blog and the lakers have a lot in common. In both cases they are going down that slippery slope and have even "Jump the Shark".

/counting down the days till this becomes only a photoblog.
// counting down the days till you change blog names again.

Feel Better?

Posted by: john at May 20, 2005 10:48 AM

oh SNAPS. I was WAITING for the day someone brought the lakers up.

Good one.

Posted by: y at May 20, 2005 10:49 AM

oh and "john"? I think this turned into a photoblog about 9 months ago.

Posted by: y at May 20, 2005 11:02 AM

I read every day and don't comment, so THERE!

Also, could you try to get some footage of Gabby yelling at the TV? Even just the look she has on her face in that second picture makes me want to see the whole scene in action. I wonder what she thinks she's telling it to do?

Posted by: lee at May 20, 2005 11:07 AM

Noticed I said "only". You still shared with us more then just pictures.

As far as the lakers goes I wouldnt worry. They may improve their fortunes soon with Jackson coming back. The blog on the other hand...

Posted by: John at May 20, 2005 11:11 AM

Yeah, there aint no "jackson" to save this blog. But I'm not getting paid 298359 million dollars to do this, so, I can totally afford to suck.

Posted by: y at May 20, 2005 11:15 AM

Girl, I wish I sucked as bad as you (LOL). You SOOOO DO NOT SUCK!!! Your blog is amazing, the pics, the entries, everything!!!!! You rock!

Posted by: Kelly at May 20, 2005 12:17 PM

i *never*comment here...

...but let me tell you one thing: you don't suck, missy!

k? :P

Posted by: kaydee at May 20, 2005 12:48 PM

You do not suck. You have a family. Stop. Enough, already with the 'I suck'-age. Your blog cracks me up and makes me want to have a family. And keep up w/the therapist. I'm 3.5 yrs on the couch and I'm so much better for it.

Posted by: Chaeriste at May 20, 2005 12:56 PM

Awwwwwww look at her. How could you resist chasing that cute little girl. She is absolutely adorable. Pretty little girl. I remember when my daughter first started crawling. God that was an amazing but stressful time for me. She was into EVERYTHING! LOL. Anyhow Y, I sent you an email. Later girlie. Much love and respect.

Posted by: Kristina at May 20, 2005 01:00 PM

I LOVE chasing her around. What I do NOT love is having to scoop things out of her mouth so she doesn't choke to death. Where she finds these things? I have no idea, but OH MY GOD, how she finds them!

Posted by: y at May 20, 2005 01:03 PM

At least you have something to decline from. I never went up! hehe

Speaking of the Lakers (I know I saw that up there somewhere)...go see my latest post.

/shameless attempt to get people to visit me.

Posted by: NinaKaye at May 20, 2005 01:04 PM

The problem with this blog is that you're too busy playing with your armpit hair than to write worth a shit.

Get off my internet.

Also? The stuff in the mouth? I've given up. As long as she can't choke, I let her have at it.

Also? I'm not going to say how much I love talking to you, how much you cheer me up, make me laugh. Because I think you smell bad.

Alsoooo? I'm not sad about my phone plan changing because I totally hate talking to you.

You smell like poop.

Posted by: Sarcastic Journalist at May 20, 2005 01:04 PM

Y, I read your blog everyday whenever I can and you do not sux, you're like the funniest one blogging out there now and guess what? I got my friend reading your blog religiously like me too :) And Gabby? She's soooooo cute! How can I not come here everyday to check on her cuteness!

Sometimes I don't comment coz I was too busy or too sleepy, sometimes I do :)

Posted by: Mona at May 20, 2005 01:28 PM

Dude, I check your blog twice a day while I'm at work. Please don't think you suck, I'm never not entertained. Not to mention your daughter has the best smile!! It's hilarious! so cute!

So keep it up.

Posted by: Kitten at May 20, 2005 02:22 PM

awww she's so cute! she's a Leo isn't she? All us Leos KNOW we're hot! lol

Posted by: laurie at May 20, 2005 02:48 PM

I know what you mean about not having time to comment. I read here almost every day. Actually, I come to gaze at the wonderfulness that is Gabby. Anytime you want to trade that little girl, I have a Boy Terror I am letting go for a good price!!

Posted by: Tammy/averagemom at May 20, 2005 03:12 PM

Your blog is still my favorite!! Plus I love seeing pictures of your cute family and California. I love California but my ENTIRE family won't there. Boo Hoo!

Posted by: carolyn at May 20, 2005 03:58 PM

I read, don't always comment.

We have a lot in common, expecially in the body image department. UGH.

I also happen to have adorable twins- boy/girl. AND my little girl has the exact same outfit as Gabby.

Does Gabby pull the little bloomers off and then rip the diaper off? Not yet? You wait. Your day is coming! I hope. I don't want to be alone in the diaper removing child arena. HAHA

Posted by: Janis at May 20, 2005 05:27 PM

you don't suck.

And I don't care if you don't write for days, as long as you don't leave forever. Besides, I understand. :)

We've lost our coffee table, and are about to lose another and the gates are up now. DUDE, I'M SO TIRED.

And you really don't suck.

Posted by: Stacey at May 20, 2005 06:03 PM

Actually, Y. I took an internet vote and everyone said that your TV is too big and that you have nice floors and you're probably busy polishing all your fancy silverware.

Don't lie.

Posted by: Sarcastic Journalist at May 20, 2005 06:13 PM

I hate the big tittie mama blog

Posted by: NOT SJ at May 20, 2005 06:13 PM

You rock Y! Don't be silly, we're all still out here loving your writings.

I love the picture of gabby cracking up at herself! Doesn't she look like she is slapping the floor and saying "Ha! I kill me!"

I tried to be a troll to SJ since she wrote and badmouthed small dogs. Grrrr. But I love her writings, so I laugh and I forgive her : )

Posted by: halloweenlover at May 20, 2005 06:15 PM

H- I only badmouth small dogs in outfits in public places.

Small doggies are cute. I used to have one. But I did not dress him up.

And? Don't troll me, troll Y. She WANTS to be trolled!

Posted by: NOT SJ at May 20, 2005 06:18 PM

SJ... you seem to enjoy trolling this site.

Are you jealous because Y is a big titty mama and yours aren't as big as hers now?

Admit it , you are.

Posted by: Totally Not Y at May 20, 2005 06:22 PM

I did dress my dogs up in red sox uniforms for halloween last year. But um, then they won. I think it was totally the doggie costumes.

And Y, big titties suck. Small flat chested girls are totally the new thing.

See? troll troll troll.

Posted by: halloweenlover at May 20, 2005 06:31 PM

I'm another 'always-reader' but 'not-always commenter'. Time, lame-ass sucky comments, inferiority complex, they all get in the way.

Keep on sucking Y, cos if this sucks then I'm a suckee ;)

Posted by: Mushster at May 20, 2005 06:34 PM

Ok.. I wanted to tell you that you totally don't suck but I think I'm not allowed, so I'll just troll instead and say
OMG U R teh ... uh... ( this trolling thing is hard ) U suXSSSSSSS and uh... um.. yeah.

OK. I suck at trolling.

Posted by: shy me at May 20, 2005 06:43 PM

I don't need no big titties because they flop. My titties are big enough and I had porn sites linking to them, biznitch.

Do you have porn people rating your titties?

No. Because you look like Matlock.

Posted by: SJ's Secret Twin at May 20, 2005 06:46 PM

shy me, I think what you're trying to say is:

OMG UR TEH SUX0rS!!!!!11111oneoneone\\\\PWNAGE!1111111

Posted by: Stacey at May 20, 2005 06:57 PM

Hey Yvonne, I just wanted to let you know I have a craving for buffalo chicken & blue cheese dip now.

And there's no where around here that makes good buffalo chicken. BOOOOO.

Posted by: Stacey at May 20, 2005 07:05 PM

Your gimmick worked, look at all the great comments! Like everyone else, I read you all the time but hardly ever comment. I read you site because you're funny, honest, and you make me feel better when I'm having a rough day. Wow, that was deep.

I guess I'm the dumbass of the day because I don't get what this trolling thing is.

Posted by: what a life at May 20, 2005 07:15 PM

trolling is when you go to someone's site and just say something mean and hateful because you are an idiot.

A lot of things can count as trolling but are not limited to saying "stupid SUV driving republican" or "fat whale" or "Dumb ass idiot."

Posted by: SJ's Secret Twin at May 20, 2005 07:28 PM

Okay shit. keep forgetting to change my name back.

Posted by: Sarcastic Journalist at May 20, 2005 07:29 PM

Does that mean that it's OK for us to tell you that you don't suck? Because you totally don't.

I suck because I don't have the time to read you every day like I used to. I still come back here and read all the back-posts I missed until I get caught up again, though. But then I don't post cuz it's too far after the fact.

I found you when I was unemployed and I used to check back several times a day in the hopes that you might have written something new. Your humor helped me get through a long, anxious time.

Now, I can't get enough of your cheese. I always enjoy seeing pictures of your gorgeous kids and reading about their escapades. You do have an amazing family.

I've also enjoyed reading your personal journey of discovery. I struggle with the self esteem thing too, so we are sisters under the skin. You have truly come so far. Don't ever lose sight of that.

I promise that I will post more if you promise to stop saying that you suck. Deal? ;-p

Posted by: dana michelle at May 20, 2005 07:45 PM

Like many others I read you faithfully every day and worry when you don't post for a while!

Posted by: Old Fart Grandma at May 20, 2005 08:40 PM

I'm having the same problem. No on told me that getting laid would make me so boring.

Posted by: melly at May 20, 2005 09:07 PM

honey, i haven't had time to go around commenting either. school, work, family life - they keep me busy.

i still love you, even if i'm not around as much. :*

Posted by: becky at May 20, 2005 09:12 PM

I read this here blogger every darn day. I jus don be commenting cuz everyon allready dun said everthing I wuz gon' say.

Posted by: rhymeswithdaddy at May 20, 2005 09:16 PM

You rule, I would'nt know what to do with a daily read of Y.

Posted by: Richard at May 20, 2005 11:01 PM

oMg yU aLl SuCk FuR coMnTTiNg oN diZ siTeE lYkE WoAh.

StUpIdSSZz.

Posted by: Erin at May 21, 2005 05:26 AM

yr babe is so kut. u have gr8 tits and ass. U R so kool and stuff.

I'm not good at being a troll.

Posted by: MollieBee at May 21, 2005 10:47 AM

You are a daily read..I wouldn't know what to do without your goofy Gabby posts..or something about your boys...or your husband. Love, you do not suck...your life is just different than before. You wanna see suckage on a blog...go visit mine! :)

Posted by: angie at May 21, 2005 11:03 AM

Gabby pictures are the bestest!

Miss you!!!

Posted by: :: jozjozjoz :: at May 21, 2005 04:12 PM

I was actually feeling sad about the decline of this blog. I notice less people are commenting and reading.

dude. you get more comments than we get in a YEAR. :-P

p.s. you suck (mmhmm. that's what he said). ;-)

Posted by: girl at May 21, 2005 06:58 PM

It's not that I'm complaining, trust me, it's that I just noticed a decline. I'm not all "No one comments anymore!" because that's not true.

I just meant, well, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I MEANT.

Posted by: Y at May 21, 2005 07:34 PM

I am number 50 so shut up. ;)

Posted by: Sarcastic Journalist at May 21, 2005 08:41 PM

Oy. I have been reading but not commenting because my (*#&$(#* lovely children have been sick for a month and they must be held, leaving me a sole free finger to type with.

Y, I admire your ability to riff on just about anything and have it be both funny and poignent. I can't troll you (or anyone) because my trash-talking skillz are weak. Perhaps it's time for another visit to asksnoop.com for me.

Posted by: Jenny at May 21, 2005 08:47 PM

You don't suck!
Sorry I can't comment more. It's because I have nothing interesting to say, because I suck. There. See. You're not the only one with a screwed up self-image, take heart!

Posted by: Chelle at May 21, 2005 09:05 PM

See, when we say that we love you and think you're hilarious, and then you say you suck, it's like if we were at the mall, and we said "I love that dress. I'm going to buy it because it'll make me look hot" and you said "Are you f'ing high?! That's the f'ing ugliest f'ing dress in the history of ugly f'ing dresses and it will make your huge f'ing ass look even f'ing huger!!"

Quit criticizing our taste. We know gorgeous and hilarious when we see it.

You r0xx0r!! Accept it. Er.. acc3p7 1t!11!11!!ONE1/1!

(p.s. I'd like to have Melly's problem)

Posted by: Tanya at May 22, 2005 09:40 AM

#54 - woo! made it in the top 100! 4 real, y0!!!!!!

Posted by: becky at May 22, 2005 06:32 PM

You don't suck :-)

Posted by: Amanda at May 23, 2005 07:26 AM

I read your page every monday thru friday and sometimes on the weekend.
I do not troll (what ever that means)

And Y I am still waiting for a thank you card, yo!

Posted by: Amy S at May 23, 2005 07:49 AM
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