When I was a little girl, my family often brought up the fact that I was "pigeon-toed".
It bothered my grandma a great deal. She was always pointing out how I walked with my feet turning inward.
"She's pigeon-toed! Look how her feet turn in when she walks! You need to get that taken care of, Lin."
She'd bring it up all of the time.
I started to feel a bit deformed (hey! Maybe that's why I feel so ugly all of the time! I walk like a cripple!) and became very self conscience about the way I walked.
One day, while my Grandma was going on about my pigeon toed walk, she blurted out "I think she may need 'SPECIAL SHOES', maybe even 'leg braces'"
I remember feeling scared when she said that. Who would want to play with a girl who wears leg braces? How would I chase boys with "special shoes"? What about the ice cream man? Would he stop for a girl with leg braces? I DON'T THINK SO.
On the other hand, I have to admit, I felt a tinge of excitement at the amount of attention and pity a girl with "leg braces" and "special shoes" would recieve.
"Aw, let the cripple go first! Look at how pretty she is with her shiny, metal legs!"
I am NOT kidding, people. I started to realize that having leg braces would be a great way to get attention and I began to fantasize about how the other kids would be jealous of me and my specialness.
Talk about conflicted feelings on an issue. On one hand, I was devasted at the thought of being the ugly girl who needed braces to walk like a "normal child" on the other hand, I was like "EVERYONE LOVES A GIRL WITH SPECIAL SHOES! I will be the center of attention everywhere I go!"
I never did have to get leg braces or wear special shoes.
Which was sad news and happy news. Because I'd never get to be in the special olympics or be the center of attention, but thank God because MAN was I able and did I ever chase the boys.







Hey, I HAD those special shoes. My parents couldn't afford the leg braces, but I wore those horrible shoes for years. And I don't remember getting a lot of sympathy... Darn. I should have worked those shoes a little better! ;-)