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July 20, 2005
Worried (an understatement)

I've not been well these past few days.

I've been physically sick. My kids have been sick. I've been overwhelmed emotionally.

I don't sleep at night because of my heart. It races, and I jump out of bed, afraid I'm going to die.

Panic attacks? Stress? A bad heart?

I don't know, but it scares me.

I've been able to deal with everything fine, until right now. Because right now, my son, who has been sick all morning, screamed from the bathroom just now.

"Mom, I think I'm bleeding. I'm dripping blood."

I run to the bathroom, look in the toilet and yeah, he's bleeding.

My heart sunk and I panicked. Yes, I panic easily, but he's my child and I don't like my children to bleed. Especially out of places their not supposed to bleed.

Maybe it's nothing, but maybe it's something.

I can't deal with "Something."

I googled "blood in stool".

Not a good idea. I saw words like "cancer" and "disease".

He's scared. He's in a lot of pain. I'm trying my best to comfort him and reassure him that everything will be fine.

It's not easy to do when I'm just as scared as he is.

My children, they are everything to me. It sounds so cliche, so cheesy, so whatever you want to call it, but, BUT they ARE the reason I get out of bed every morning, excited to face the day. They ARE what I live for.

Since I was 22 years old, I've spend each and every day of my life trying to keep them happy, healthy and safe.

The mere thought of something going wrong with their bodies makes me sick with fear.

I talked to my sister on the phone right now and told her how scared I am about what I saw. What she said helped ease my fear somewhat. I'll feel much better when we see the doctor this afternoon and he says "It's nothing to worry about, he'll be fine."

Until I hear those words? I'll be a complete wreck.

Posted by Y at July 20, 2005 08:17 AM
Comments

Depending on where the blood's coming from (ahem), it could also be a UTI or bladder infection. Or perhaps an ulcer.

Posted by: Broad at July 20, 2005 10:40 AM

Oh, wait. You said "blood in stool." Sorry.

Still, it could be an ulcer, or even a hemmorhoid, especially if he's been constipated. Sounds counterintuitive, I know, but still ...

Hang in there, hon, and keep us posted.

Posted by: Broad at July 20, 2005 10:42 AM

Or broken blood vessel if he's been having diarrhea.

I'll shut up now.

Posted by: Broad at July 20, 2005 10:43 AM

I'm sure he'll be ok! Let me know how it goes. *hug*

Posted by: sphinxy at July 20, 2005 10:59 AM

I freak out too, I know how you feel. Our oldest has nosebleeds, a lot. One doctor said "we'll do bloodwork, but this could be a sign of {some cancer name}." Well, we were pretty much freaked out for the week while we waited to do more bloodwork. Turns out, he just had an infection. He still has the nosebleeds, but trips to a better doctor let us know these things sometimes happen.

I hope everything turns out okay!!

Posted by: NinaKaye at July 20, 2005 11:00 AM

It is completely understandable for you to freak out. My hubby had this problem about a month ago. His was a minor infection in his colon. But it sure is scary to see. Hang in there and let us know when the doc says, "all clear."

Posted by: Jazzy at July 20, 2005 11:17 AM

You're a mom. It's your job to freak out when something not right happens to your child. I'm sure everything will be okay.

Posted by: gc at July 20, 2005 11:33 AM

Oh I hope everything is ok, I am a total panicer(?) too. Let us know how it goes at the doctors. ((((HUGS))))

Posted by: Nicole at July 20, 2005 11:35 AM

I'm praying for you and your family. Everything will be alright - it's in God's hands sugar!

*hugs!*

Posted by: Trishie at July 20, 2005 11:53 AM

Many hugs honey, I hope everything is ok!

Posted by: Crystal at July 20, 2005 11:54 AM

I know how scary that is, the good news is that you have less to worry about if the blood is red than if it's black.

Did you look at his tush?

Let us know as soon as you know.

Posted by: Mieke at July 20, 2005 11:55 AM

He's really young still, isn't he? I'd think it was too early for some of the more dangerous things that can cause that sort of malady. Trip to the doctor ought to fix 'em.

Posted by: Maine at July 20, 2005 12:11 PM

really could just be hemorrhoids--which suck for him, but totally treatable. Sorry you are having such a rough time though--when do you see the doctor?

Posted by: Amy at July 20, 2005 01:55 PM

y, step away from the google!

i know you're worried hon. but freaking out about it isn't going to do you or him any good. i hope it's good news at the doctor. big hugs.

Posted by: becky at July 20, 2005 02:01 PM

He could have an ulcer true, but also he could have a stomach bug thats pretty bad and that can happen also. Someone mentioned piles, well that can happen with piles as well. So don't freak out and just wait for the news. I know I get the same way each time Megan has one of her breathing problems and we have to get up in the middle of the night to rush her to the hospital. It's not fun and I get sick to my stomach each time I see her gasp for air. It sucks. Let us know how it goes Y. Lots of hugs and warm well wishes.

Posted by: Kristina at July 20, 2005 02:09 PM

Eek! I'm sorry. That is scary, and I'm glad you were able to get him in to the doctor this afternoon. Better to do it that way than go to the emergency room, and, more than likely, have to wait just as long there under much more uncomfortable circumstances.

Mine swallowed a penny once and I TOTALLY freaked out. Sorry this is happening. Keep us posted.

-H

Posted by: hed at July 20, 2005 02:12 PM

As far as the heart racing thing.....

Years ago mine began doing it while I was pregnant. We chalked it up to that but then it was still there.
It got worse and worse to the point of making me black out one day at work.
I finally went to the doctor and had a heart monitor put on.
It is a type of arrythmia that is now controlled with daily medication. (a beta blocker called Metaprolol)
So perhaps it is the same thing.
Mine would happen at all times, not just times of extra activity. I could be sitting totally still and it would start.

Hope everything turns out alright.

We all worry.

Posted by: Mary at July 20, 2005 04:15 PM

My son had blood in his stool and from what I understand red blood is better than black (bleeding internally). We decided he had diverticulitis which is basically not enough fiber (this is my junk food junkie so not a surprise!) and we adjusted his diet. It cleared right up.

Best of luck - thinking of you both.

Posted by: D at July 20, 2005 04:46 PM

I'm keeping y'all in my thoughts. I'm sure it is something easily explained and treated.

Posted by: Jenny at July 20, 2005 04:54 PM

I cannot begin to imagine the stress a parent must go through when their child is hurting. I wouldn't dare to compare it to the love I have for my furry kids. I hope it's really nothing to worry about, so hang in there.

Posted by: etherian at July 20, 2005 05:35 PM

I'm so sorry. I know you must be a wreck, but am sure it will all work out and be dealt with accordingly. Blood coming from anywhere it shouldn't is worrisome, and you were smart to get an appt. ASAP. Let us know what you find out. And stop with the internet searches, sometimes ignorance truly is bliss until we have the truth. God Bless.

Posted by: mmc at July 20, 2005 05:59 PM

Hope everything is OK!

Posted by: Sueellen at July 20, 2005 06:30 PM

Sometimes blood in the stool is caused by simply not chewing crunchy foods up enough, especially when it involves a kid. The too-big pieces scratch the colon and that's where the blood comes from.

A meal or two of softish foods and it will probably clear right up.

And if it doesn't, then it's doctor-time.

(This happened to my son a lot when he was between 8-14 years old. He was just in too big a hurry to chew his food thoroughly.)

It's very common. I hope it's the reason for your son's problem, and not something else.

You know, hon, most situations such as this usually have very easy ordinary origins and solutions. As moms, we panic because we would lie down in the road to keep our children from hurting in any way, but try not to panic till you've waited a little bit, to see if maybe it's just a 'kid' thing.

And, you are just the sweetest person in the world.

Posted by: mamacita at July 20, 2005 06:34 PM

I'm sure it will be okay!

This happens to my husband occasionally. He has had it checked out, and it's fissures caused by lack of fibre in his diet. Metamucil is now his best friend.

Posted by: Mellissa at July 21, 2005 05:32 AM

it'll be fine, i'm sure. i'm thinking of you sending good vibes over the ocean ;o)

Posted by: kim at July 21, 2005 05:51 AM

Thinking of you all!

Posted by: Kelly at July 21, 2005 06:29 AM

I'm sorry Y, I'd be scared too, only because I guess being a mom makes you want to take each and every possible pain or hurt away from your kids and make it your own.

Good luck at the doctors and we'll all be waiting to hear from you.

Posted by: halloweenlover at July 21, 2005 08:03 AM

I'm sure everything will be ok. Not to be gross but I dripped blood once from my bottom due to a hemorroid. Then my little guy (4 yrs old) had blood in his stool and it turned out to be from an anal fissure (tear) because he wasn't getting enough fiber/fluids to soften up that poop. You cannot believe the size of this kid's poops! Sometimes I wonder how in the hell they don't rip him more than they already do. So, that being said, I'm sure your son will be fine but I know it's hard not to worry! Healthy thoughts being sent your way.

Posted by: Stacie at July 21, 2005 11:05 AM
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