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March 13, 2006

I had just about finished writing a post about visiting my grandfather this weekend, at home because he's been released from the hospital and is doing so much better and how he was less than 2 days from death had my cousin not gone to visit and noticed that he was turning BLUE, but HA! Firefox crashed (AGAIN) and there went the post.

I may rewrite it, because it was a wonderful visit (and a wonderful post, I might add. I mean, I used to word "uplifting!" in it, people!) But, right now, I'm too bitter about having lost that post so this is all you're going to get. For now.

I'm not feeling well and have convinced myself I have cancer. I'm tired all of the time and I have started getting these little red dots all over my arm, stomach and legs that look like blood vessels breaking under the skin. I'm scared as hell (because, yes, I googled my symptoms), but, how much do you want to bet that my doctor will tell me that "there's nothing wrong!" and "it's normal to have bloody dots all over your body!"

As if it's not bad enough that I'm lathargic and spotted with a bloody rash, I've got a lot going on in other places of my body. Like I said VERY LOUDLY to my cousin at the EXACT moment the music suddenly stopped in dance class on Friday night "Hemorroids AND a yeast infection, it's like A PARTY IN MY PANTS!"

But seriously folks. I'm one miserable human being right now and I don't feel much like writing. I just wanted to let you know that Grandpa is better. Thank you so much for your emails, comments and prayers.

Posted by Y at March 13, 2006 08:41 AM
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I have those spots on my arms too, sometimes they are worse than others. I got all the tests done for Mylofibrosis and they were all negative. That was about 5 years ago. Then I found out about a spleen disorder that can cause it, and easy bruising, which I also have. And apparently by getting your spleen out it will stop, but if you don't it's not serious (at least from what I remember reading) I don't feel sick or anything so whatever. My husband jokes about the whole spleen removal thing, but, if that's what it is, I'd totally get my spleen out, and smack him with it.

Posted by: melissasunshine at March 13, 2006 01:01 PM

I'm glad about your opa.

In a spectacularly unrelated comment, I think you should TOTALLY apply for this:

http://blogs.clubmom.com/clubmom/2006/03/wanted_mom_blog.html

because you would ROCK. And also because THEY PAY YOU TO BLOG and how cool would that be?

Posted by: dollyllama at March 13, 2006 01:17 PM

I am glad to hear that your grandfather is doing better. I will continue to keep him, and you, in my thoughts and prayers.

Posted by: Jessica at March 13, 2006 01:25 PM

Oh, I'm so disappointed--for me, and you--that you lost your post. That sucks.
And I'm sorry you feel so shitty right now.

But I'm glad Opa is doing better.

Posted by: Amy at March 13, 2006 01:27 PM

Well, I hope your grandpa and your vagina and your dots get better.

Posted by: Debbie at March 13, 2006 01:29 PM

I'm glad to hear that your grandpa is doing better. That is good news.

Now...you do not have cancer. Sometimes if I work out too much in too much heat, I'll get a blood dot rash thing on my arms... Other than that...it's not cancer.

"It's not a tumah" said in my best Ahnuld voice...

Posted by: Itchy at March 13, 2006 01:36 PM

Do what you think is best for you in this case. If you're seriously worried, don't be afraid to get a second, third, fourth opinion and so on. Bad doctors out there, and there are good ones. It's important to find the good ones, because the bad ones will nickle and dime you to death, and never get to the bottom of what could, or could not be a serious problem. I should know. I went through five this year, finally landing myself on a good one after SEVERAL months.

They are out there.

-H

Posted by: Hed at March 13, 2006 01:48 PM

Yvonne!
Step away from the f'in Google. Honestly. No good can come from Google.

If you want to hear about a crazy person (me) who used Google like a crazy person at one point, email me. If you're at all anxious about something, Googling symptoms is THE worst thing you can do. A rash turns into Cancer . . . sometimes a rash is just a rash.....

Seriously. I understand the crazy.

Posted by: Anita at March 13, 2006 04:46 PM

i'm glad to read that your grandfather is on the end. and i hope that you are too. i wish i could be nearly as witty when i'm worried & not feeling well.

Posted by: Dawn at March 13, 2006 05:09 PM

hon take yourself to the nearest fire station and get your blood sugar tested. Those are all warning signs for diabetes unchecked.

My mom (bless her soul) had those---when I saw my dots appearing, and was tired all the time, my dr said, diet modification, exercise, etc.

Treatable, and not fatal if you follow dr's orders.

Promise you'll go?

Posted by: Me (semi-lurker) at March 13, 2006 05:25 PM

I'm so glad to read your grandfather is doing better. That is great news.

Google should be banned. I'm always googling my symptoms. For a while I was convinced I had leukemia. Doctors can be real pains sometimes. My mom refuses to go to hers because he always comments on how she has gained weight. They have crappy insurance so she can't just switch to anyone she wants. She has some stuff going on right now though, that has made me decide I'm dragging her to the doctor when I go home to visit this summer, and if the doctor says one thing about her weight, I'll punch him for her. Is that love or what?!

Posted by: Jen at March 13, 2006 05:57 PM

So glad to hear about your opa! Now, it's time to take care of Y, but not on google!

Posted by: Jo at March 13, 2006 06:05 PM

You better go to the doctor! You could have contact dermatitis or something (meaning you're allergic to something that your skin is touching...have you changed your detergent or fabris sofener?)

I hope you get to feeling better soon.

Posted by: Chickadee at March 13, 2006 08:27 PM

i'm so glad i'm not the only person that googles symptoms anytime i have the slightest thing wrong with me! it never ever makes me feel better - in fact, it usually convinces me that i'm dying - but i do it anyway. damn you internet!

Posted by: geeky at March 13, 2006 08:37 PM

Yay! I'm very happy your grandfather is better! Funny you mention cancer though, I've been thinking I have it too. And no I swear I haven't googled my symptoms or anything (looks around sheepishly while appearing guilty). In all fairness though, Google was right about my Sciatica...I mean that's got to count for something, right?? Eek...

Posted by: April at March 13, 2006 09:07 PM

those red dots are called "Petechiae" and they're generally an indicator of low platelet count. my platelet count gets low just about every time I get a nasty infection of some sort. but I was talking to a friend of mine who's a 4th year med student and she said that your platelets have to get really f'in low before your doctor really worries too much b/c they usually come back up after a round of antibiotics. she was telling me about how IV drug users have like NO platelets at all and how they could bleed out anytime they cut themselves. that's fucked up, isn't it?

Posted by: girl at March 13, 2006 09:20 PM

Well I hear Scarlett Fever is going around the daycares in White People Land....

Posted by: Sarcastic Journalist at March 13, 2006 09:24 PM

good to hear your opa doing better. and i'm pretty sure you don't have cancer. you ask me how i know? you have the most shiny and pretty hair in the universe, woman. PMS possibly? now don't hit me. or do. if it makes you feel better :) *smooch*

Posted by: kim at March 14, 2006 08:18 AM

((hugs)) hope you are feeling better soon :)

Posted by: wendi at March 14, 2006 09:49 AM

Hope you feel better soon. Sending you soothing thoughts and a hug.

Posted by: Philip at March 14, 2006 12:24 PM

re: the spots... they can also be a sign that your white blood cell count is out of wack... not in a cancer way, but stilll important to have checked.

Posted by: Kristin at March 14, 2006 02:49 PM

I'm glad to hear your opa is getting better. Now go see the Doc! You've been working out extra hard, you've been under a lot of stress... who knows? Maybe you just changed laundry detergent and your skin hates it? Just go to the doctor. Now, Missy!

Posted by: demondoll at March 14, 2006 05:02 PM

Now when I had your symptoms I was convinced I had the CANCER too but alas it turned out to be diabetes and thyroid disease. When I did end up with the cancer I had no clue.
Go figure.

Glad your Opa is improving and I hope he continues to do so.

Posted by: Kay at March 14, 2006 08:46 PM

So happy about Opa and please know my love and prayers are with you right now Y.

Kelly

Posted by: Kelly at March 15, 2006 03:55 AM

I can understand why the spots would be worrisome. It's always a good idea to get spots checked out, though. It's hard to know what they could be without a) having an MD and b) seeing them. Preferably (a) and (b) together.

Posted by: Emily G. at March 15, 2006 04:31 AM

Hi I'm glad to hear your Opa is doing better. Big h'internet hugs xx.

Posted by: lynne at March 15, 2006 06:09 AM

How in the f do you work out with a yeast infection? I cannot do it. Too much squirming going on.

Posted by: Dawn at March 15, 2006 01:18 PM

Glad Grandpa is ok. And bloody dots? I have a friend with those, and they are called something and it's not cancer. She's tired all the time, too. Go see a doctor and set your mind at ease and stop with the googling symptoms.

Posted by: Autumn at March 15, 2006 09:36 PM
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