Well, it's been a while since I've done a "weight post." And the reason for that is because I'm still struggling. I'm now up 8 pounds. EIGHT. I'm frustrated as HELL. I've been at the gym 4 nights a week for the past 3 weeks and I am not losing any weight.
So, I've decided to take drastic measures.
I know that I'm going to take shit for this and I should probably keep it to myself, but, I've always been nothing but honest when it comes to my weight loss and so, I will share my "drastic measures" with you.
Yesterday, I started The Atkins Diet.
(Oh my GOD! Think about your kidneys, you crazy bitch! ATKINS DIET WILL KILL YOU!)
My body is rebelling against my weight loss efforts and the Points system isn't working for me right now. I feel as though I need to shock my body into submission and this is the best way I know how to do that.
In March, I was 179. Today, I am 187 pounds. God, that makes me want to puke. And punch people where babies come out. And sock nut sacks repeatedly.
Little miss "YOU CAN DO IT, YOU CAN LOSE WEIGHT, LOOK AT ME! I DID IT! IF I CAN DO IT! YOU CAN DO IT!" isn't doing so well. I'm so angry and ashamed with myself. And, I can't help but feel like a fraud.
Desperate times calls for desperate measures and in my opinion, the Atkins Diet is as desperate as it gets for me. One of the reason I LOVE LOVE LOVE weight watchers is that it's taught me how to eat sensibly. I haven't had to eliminate entire food groups, I haven't had to sacrifice the foods I love. I've just had to learn the right portions and a little self control.
I just feel like I need to "switch it up" a little bit and get my body back into fat burning mode and The Atkins Diet is the best way I know how to do that.
I was on Atkins once before and let me tell you, I've never been thinner, had more energy or healthier. I read the book, I took the tests he recommends you take and after following the diet properly for a few months, all of my blood work came back PERFECT. And I had dropped 30 pounds in just over 2 months.
However, once I went back to my "normal" way of eating, the weight creeped back on. Which, DUH.
So, why in the world am I doing it again? Because, like I said, I need to jumpstart my "system" and get my body into fat burning mode again.
I'm not going to go all "Bacon, beef and PORKRIND" crazy. The plan is to eat eggs for breakfast, a salad with meat for lunch (with blue cheese dressing. Mmmmm) and lean meats with grilled veggies for dinner. There's NOTHING unhealthy about that. I know people get all worked up when they hear Atkins because they think that people are scarfing down on endless beef patties, covered with bacon, cheese and ranch dressing. And while I know that some people actually DO that whilst on the Atkins diet, I am not one of those people.
After the two week induction diet is over, I plan on going back on Weight Watchers, but staying away from things like FRAPPUCINOS and ice cream.
I hope my "plan" works because I'm so tired of feeling like a failure.
Now, I haven't posted pictures in a while, because, well, you know... EMBARRASSING, but today, I will "come clean" and post some "starting over, again pictures.
(I'm scared. Be gentle with me.)
I really should clean my mirror before taking pictures (Because, cleaning it JUST BECAUSE would be dumb.) I mean, EWW.
I can NOT believe I'm posting this picture. The belly roll! The double, quite possibly triple, chin! AH! The truth, it aint pretty, people.
The headless shots. Because they make me look thinner than I actually am and after that shot up above, I think I deserve to be nice to myself.
So, there you have it. My "current" State of Weight.
It's embarassing as HELL and yet, totally liberating to come clean with my struggles and once again, put it all out there.
*raises fists triumphantly*







You go girl!
I lost 60 pounds on Atkins. Once. Same deal. Once I went back to bread, man. WHOOSH, right back on.
Maybe I'll join you and get rid of my flabdomen once and for all.
Kim