You just described my daily thought process, so I would have to say NO, it's not just you! It sucks, doesn't it? It's a never-ending battle. Your blog is awesome and has been quite inspirational, so you are doing something right. Don't beat yourself up about it....in the end will it matter if you had that Take 5 at 11pm?

And here I thought it was just me.

No it's not just you. I usually start the night before, I go to bed angry at myself, because I ate too much of the wrong foods, or whatever it was I did. The next morning I wake up with a firm resolve to do better, some days I stay on track, and some days I "blow it "by 10am.

HELL NO! it's not just you! I wake up thinking about food and go to bed thinking about food. It's on my mind more than anything else in this world and that's a sad, sad fact.

Its not just you. Its not a constant thing for me...but it happens, alot. Especially the "Oh crap, I'll do better next time." type stuff.

Nope. This is me pretty much exactly. A vicious cycle of failure and depression due to the failure, and a number on the scale that only moves in one direction. And it's not the favored one.

You are not alone. When I read you, and your struggles, it makes me feel less like an obsessive, weak freak. So thanks.

It doesn't help that I'm married to a man who is only 10 pounds above his "married weight" and oftentimes "forgets to eat" and never exercises.

It's hard being me.

ok, you're in my head now. i think about food pretty much every waking moment. *sigh*

is it snacktime yet?

Yep that pretty much sums up what goes through my head on an almost minute by minute basis....... the obsession feeds the obsession.......and so on.

You are SO not alone! I feel exactly the same way and it sucks

No it's not just you...I go to bed thinking I will walk in the morning....and I will eat better...and I will follow ______program I read about today...and I will and I will and I will....and then the day is over and I am laying in bed again thinking I will walk in the morning if I sleep better tonight....and I will follow X plan better when the kids are not home or sick or ??? whatever...and I then it's morning and I will walk at lunch...and then it's dinner so I will walk after dinner and then....it starts all over again that night and before you know it....It's Wednesday so I will start fresh on Monday.....NO IT'S NOT JUST YOU!!!!

It's not just you. Not at all.

It is not just you.
It is me too.
And I'm happy to report that it's quite possibly not just us either. :)

No it is not just you! I am doing Weight Watchers right now and it is hard! I think like this ALL OF THE TIME! Keep your chin up!

Um, no - it's not just you! Though I can honestly say that not even in my most advanced stage of self-loathing have I ever thought I should put cottage cheese in my sandwich. Ew!

I do have a Doritos IV drip, though. Even if it's just in my mind. Constant.

Me too! All of it. Except the cottage cheese on the sandwich part. I can't decide if that's brilliant or icky. Huh....

I'm pretty much constantly thinking about what I'm going to eat next. And when I'm going out of town (for vacation or any reason at all) I never think of what would be fun or interesting to do wherever I'm going, I immediately try to find out all the places there are to eat that I can't get close to home.
The hardest part for me, is after I've reached my daily limit on calories yet I'm still thinking "what can I eat now?". Because sometimes I reach my limit by lunch time.

My number is somewhere between 97894874987 and 99894874987 times a day. And that doesn't account for the number of times during my 2.5 week stretch of PMS each month. But, but! I do recall some breaks of time when the numbers were not so high and I'm sure you can too.

So you think about food all of the time...NEAT. It happens, you're taking care of the things you don't like and no one said there is a perfect way of doing that.

p.s. I am so smart. I totally know everything. You are now fixed thus sayeth The Sara.

It is definitely not just you. I do this all the time. In fact, I as I type this I am heating up my Lean Cuisine lunch in the microwave thinking that if I only eat that for lunch, maybe it wouldn't be so bad to grab a bag of chips from the snack machine later. Why does food have to be so damn complicated?

The answer to every question is every single day.

Every time I eat out or go grocery shopping or order in or make my lunch for work, I worry about how much and what kind and how many. It's ridiculous, but it's a circular route through my neurons that I can't seem to stop.

You are so not alone. I bet you that if we all put our heads through the wall at once, we'd feel at least some relief. When's good for you? Thursday at 4 p.m.?

I think about food all the time, too. Sometimes, I get so tired of adding up the calories in stuff, it makes me want to scream. (Sometimes, I actually DO scream...)

So not just you.

You're not alone...I'm with you 100%.

Except the cottage cheese on sandwich thing. Ew. But if you like it then go for it.

Yesterday in a fit of needing something sweet I made PB brownies, ate half the pan, then finished it for breakfast, even though when I got out of bed this morning I said "Today's the day! I'm going to be good starting NOW." Um, apparently tomorrow is the day.

Um, how many seconds are there in a day?

I swear, I can't enjoy eating healthful foods because I feel deprived, and I can't enjoy eating junky foods because I feel guilty.

Y, I only need to lose about 5 pounds, and I think EXACTLY those same thoughts. I might not cry about it, but I was eating Rolos in my cubicle this morning at 10 a.m. My plan was to eat a Lean Cuisine for lunch, but a coworker asked me to go to the Chinese buffet and ...

Like the other comments say, it's not just you--there's many of us food-obsessed out there. The worst part, for me anyway, is that to make good food choices, I still have to think constantly and vigilantly about food! If I focus on other things and try not thinking about food, I wind up picking up "bad" food like candy bars, or eating way, way too much, because those are the choices I mindlessly and habitually make. It's just a no-win situation, isn't it?

No, sweetie, it is most definitely not just you. Wish I could offer some help, but I haven't any, I'm stuck in it, too, and haven't found the way out.

You aren't alone. I think all women struggle with the guilt from food, at least at some point. I've decided to stop feeling so bad about the things I eat, dieting isn't practical for me because it makes me unhappy. So I just exercise instead. Not that exercise is fun either. But at least it's over with in one hour and I can feel ok about eating the other 15 hours I'm awake. It's so much easier to make a lifestyle change that only consumes one hour of my day rather than making me miserable every day, all day.

Nope, definitely not just you.

That was my entire existence prior to April 22nd, 2002. I totally feel your pain. I hope you find relief from it... life today is beyond my wildest dreams, and the food is not the center of my universe any longer. What a freaking reprieve and miracle that is.

Puleeeze, girl! The last time I didn't think about food/my weight for longer than three minutes at a time, I was in labor. The time before that, I was 11.

Nope, not just you! I could have written this post myself.

Sweetheart, it is my life. Every single day, I tell myself "tonight, I will NOT snack. I will NOT pig out." I do great all day, and then the kids go to bed, and I turn into a sugar vacuum. When I find the solution, I'll let you know.
Very well written, by the way. Can you come visit my English 10 class, and show them how it's done?!

I think we are in the majority, actually. I know, let's take over the world!!!

I heart you. and your courage to say what we all think......

i can hardly leave this comment because i'm so busy thinking about what i will/will not should/shouldnot eat.

i was just thinking about going to taco bell to be honest.
and to be even more honest, i think i'm definitely going to go.
and then i'll be depressed about it all night, until (probably sometime during american idol) i'll soothe myself with some girlscout cookies or something.

as you can see, i have a very busy day.

Y,
Totally with you.
I have even considered trying to gain 50 lbs so that I would qualify to get one of those lap-band, stomach surgery things...
Jennifer

This website has provided me much needed validation! I am constantly thinking about how I'll go and walk or run if I eat that hamburger and I never end up walking or running. I get more exercise in my head than on my feet. Why are we so obsessed with food? I really would continue to suck down calories if my mouth were wired shut. It's sad but I'm glad that I'm not the only one out there struggling with it. I'm glad that I found your blog and that you posted this one.

You're a hoot!
Andrea

Totally not just you. :)

Y -

If it's only you then I *am* you because it's also me.

(What a perfect day for our firewall to suddenly unblock your site ... I have my Joy Unexpected fix back! WOO!)

Seriously - I do the same thing every single day, day in and day out. And every meal. And between every meal. And before I go to bed. No matter how definite my intentions are, I still manage to bust them every time.

Never forget, tho ... Y, you're SO beautiful. Just as you are. Don't ever think that your struggle with food and weight makes you even a jot less gorgeous or special.

That being said - my sesame chicken and egg roll (as opposed to the salad I promised myself I'd eat for lunch) are getting cold. So I'm going to go inhale them now, then start regretting it whilst simultaneously wondering what I can scrounge for dessert. Sigh ...

I hope you have the msg by now that so many of us struggle with this. My thoughts: If we wives weren't implicitly in charge of all the planning, shopping, cooking, etc of all meals for the family, and it was all planned and handed to us on a meal-by-meal basis, I think we would think about it less, and obsess less. Is this what celebrities with personal chefs do? Any thoughts?

Y,
We all struggle with food, weight and insecurities. Just remember that we (the blogging community, friends and family) are here to support one another in this quest of dieting. I don't think there is one women out there that doesn't overthink what we are eating and promise "tomorrow I'll be better, but tonight I'm having that piece or 2 of the chocolate cream pie" I am struggling and it's good to know that I'm not alone, and neither are you.

Go to http://www.sparkpeople.com. It's free and it works. The community is great, and you can even start your own little weight loss blog there.

I too, could have written this entry myself. But it wouldn't be nearly as interesting, and funny, and genius as the way you write:) Sadly, its the story of my life.

Y-

EVERYONE struggles!! :)

You should join weight watchers!! It's really easy.. I just joined last week - there's really no need to go to the meetings if you don't need the "motivation" all they do is give you tips and weigh you once a week. There's a great website that I joined because I don't have time for the meetings - BootCamp Buddies - it's a Weight Watchers Support group.

And I can help you also if you like - if you want I can send you all the information you need to get started, and you won't even have to JOIN weight watchers.. I can just help you along with the points system and whatever. It's addicting though, and you can still eat donuts!!!!! I ate 3 donuts on Sunday and stayed within my points.

Anyway, if you're interested, I'll be glad to help you.

Love, Trishie.

I think about food from the minute I wake until shortly before I go to sleep.

Hang in there!

Nope, not just you. I was consumed with food, I think I thought about it so much I was gaining weight as I was thinking what I could shove in my mouth for my next meal.

Now, I wonder what my body will let me eat each and every day because it's always different, if it doesn't like it, I have to puke it up, good times, good times.

Even though i've lost all my weight, and more really than I needed to, I thought my problems (ie: god, i'm so depressed because i'm so fat) would go away. Ya, not so much....I just have a whole different set of mental issues now *sigh* It's a double edged sword.

Good luck Y, I know how ya feel, but sadly can't give ya any advice...been there done that :( I am a lot more well versed in eating healthy now, and what to feed my family...all of them have lost a ton of weight lol...Sadly, it took me a stomach surgery to figure out what the hell was healthy and what you should be eating :\

IT'S NOT JUST YOU. Welcome to my world. Hang in there!!!

What you just wrote-that is me, every single day. It's why I have failed with Weight Watchers EIGHT TIMES. After three or four days of looking up the points for every single thing I'm eating, I just can't do it any more.I find that I get MORE obsessed with food on Weight Watchers. I have also seriously considered bulimia, except I hate to throw up. I hate to exercise, I hate to diet, and I hate being fat. It's the paradox of my life. I wish I had an answer for you, but I really don't.

yes to all, except the cottage cheese part. Because ew!

That's me! That's me!

No, it's not just you.

I exhaust myself.

How I wish it was just you. No, that's not right. How I just wish it wasn't me. Or you. Or anyone for that matter. The whole thing sucks. Sucks eggs. GAH! Food again.

I'm with April...ew to cottage cheese on sandwiches! Mustard girl! Or try Branston Pickle. Anyways... this is me all the time. ALL THE TIME. I truly believe that we need to go back to working in the fields and growing everything we eat. Making the bread so we don't skarf a whole loaf because we KNOW that it will take the whole day to make some more. Not to mention growing the wheat and grinding the grain. Being busy and away from food is the best defense I have found. When I am out of the house and I am doing something, helping someone, going somewhere, I don't think of food. Park me on my couch, and the voices start calling (frozen chocolate banaaaaaaaanas...in the friiiiii--idge). And unfortunately, it's never the baby carrots in the crisper calling. Damn.

Jeez. As a big girl myself, I really DID think I was the only one that thought like this. Every morning, I plan to have a salad and fruit for lunch, only to get in line at McD's. And then, I convince myself that those salads with their dressing and croutons aren't any healthier than the burger and fries, so why not just have what I want? I can always have a "light" dinner or better lunch tomorrow anyway, right?

We won't even discuss the vending machine at work.

Not just you at all.

Y,
I FEEL EXACTLY THE SAME WAY. I ALWAYS SAY I WILL START TOMMOROW...SO I STUFF MY FACE THE NIGHT BEFORE BECAUSE THIS IS IT NO MORE EATING BAD AS OF TOMMOROW....WELL LATELY THAT TOMMOROW NEVER COMES....IT IS SO FRUSTRATING...I AM SO SICK OF THIS BATTLE....I RELATE WITH YOU SO MUCH WITH THIS STRUGGLE....TAKE CARE

I think about food a lot. My problem is not so much with weight, but with eating nutrtitious or healthy foods. I am pregnant right now, so it is particularly important that I eat well. For example - I made a jelly-roll size sheet cake (including chocolate cake, chocolate pudding, cream cheeese, & Cool Whip) on Sunday. I gave about 1/4 of it to my parents. My kids have had a couple small pieces. It'll be gone by tonight. But I can probably list on one hand the servings of vegetables I've had in the same amount of time :( Along with this is guilt over never exercising, etc.

You know what, Hon (sorry, Baltimore in the house) I'm glad to know it's not just me. I swear to God I have been beating myself up all day because I had Doritos with my salad and Diet fucking Snapple for lunch. Then, I was craving something sweet (like every day) and had a Hershey bar. Then, I thought let me grab a couple of those Peanut Butter Oreos while I read blogs and I literally just finished eating both of them while reading your post. Now, I promise you, I will avoid the bathroom mirror like it's the bloody plague when I go to take a shower before bed. And I won't let my husband touch me for the rest of the night because I feel like a cow. The moral of this comment is "you are not alone".

If only finding my self-esteem were as easy as grabbing another Oreo.

Yep. Every single day, every single hour. It's an addiction.

Like you, and most every one else here, I battle with it every day. By lunch time everything has gone to hell and I wonder if I'll ever get on track. Then there are those days, you know those days, where it's just been *that* shitty and I allow myself to have the freakin' bowl of ice cream that my husband asks me if I want every night. Once I am a bite or two into it I am calling myself a fat worthless pig - which only makes me plow through that bowl with more conviction. Gotta live up to my standards or something.

I don't know if you're into video blogs or not - but I've been watching this one for quite a long time and I thought I'd share. She started out on YouTube and has moved over to her own site. I don't know if she has all of her "episodes" on her site or if you'd have to go to YouTube for the older stuff - but it's http://www.uglyfatlady.com

Y,

This is the first time I've ever posted here. And yes, I think about food constantly, and I sometimes call my sister to talk about food. But I just had to add that I had surgery in January and HAD my jaw wired shut for 6 weeks. I didn't lose any weight. Here I was with my jaw wired shut, in pain, and trying to heal, and I was crying about not losing weight. You gotta have priorities, huh?

So even though I empathize with your feelings, I thought I'd post my little tidbit about the jaw thing. Sigh. Back to good old fashioned weight watchers for me.

its not just me.
this is really sad, actually, reading all these comments.

I think about food all the time. Its really not just you. I promise. How often have you gained 10 pounds in a week?

Me too. I even sometimes wish I could get sick for a while just to lose weight so I can start from scratch.

It makes me so sad :(

OMG I'm glad that I'm not alone! As I'm eating a meal.... I'm thinking of what I am going to eat at the next! And I snack in between too!!! MAKE IT STOP!!!!!

Sadly it looks like you are not alone, and neither am I, in an odd way this was very comforting.

Thank you

Some days are definitely like that - you are not even alone!

All I'm trying to do right now is make it one meal at a time. I'm not going to promise myself that I will be "good" all day, or for 3 weeks, and then I can have some pie. I'm trying to take each meal/snack/eating opportunity as it comes, and do the best I can with that, then move on.

The bad news is that I'm not exactly dropping lots of weight on this plan. The good news is that I feel better about myself anyway, because I'm not breaking promises to myself and I am eating better.

I was going to comment and say ME TOO! TOTALLY ME! but then I saw that you already had 68 comments from other people saying the same thing so I thought Nah, she doesn't need me to add to it. And then it hit me. If I commented I would be number 69. And how could I pass that up?

You described me to a T. Sigh.

Why hello, self! How have you managed to post on Y's blog? What have I told you about hacking?

Funny you should post this because today is the first day of the rest of Bossy's life. Which means she will no longer eat a tub of ice cream with whipped cream, blackberries, and two handfuls of skinny salty pretzels. At 10 pm. Watching Bravo reality TV.

So - how did Bossy do the first day of the rest of her life, you may ask. I said, "may." Well - she ate three bowls of soup for dinner. As a point of comparison, her husband had one bowl. Her husband the contractor. And then Bossy poured a third glass of wine and chomped on a few Fig Newtons. But tomorrow, tomorrow will be the first day of the rest of her life. And it makes more sense like that, being an odd thursday and all. Does too.

So, it's NOT just me? Is that what you're all trying to tell me?

Not sure if that's a good thing or not, but in a strange way, it's comforting to know that I'm NOT the only one.

Now, who wants a Frosty from Wendy's? My treat.

Kidding. I'm kidding!

(Well, unless you really want one.)

Weigh in was tonight.
I was one pound away from my 10% two weeks ago (the last time I was able to go to a meeting)

Tonight - I gained 1.8 and I know its because of myself.

I still had a taco too many at dinner - no worries, I will start tomorrow....

I'm that way.

Which is why I was so proud when the Man and our roomie went to Taco Bell / Long John Silver's and I told them I didn't want anything. Then! I actually got on the treadmill! While watching Scrubs!

I have a love/hate relationship with food. It's bad.

Seriously....get out of my head...lol

I think about food...while I'm eating. I think....what can I have next. I eat a sandwich... while I'm cooking.

Food consumes me as much as I consume it.

Now I want a frosty.
I'm with you on everything you said.

It's not just you. Apparently it's not just me either.

Hey Y, I didn't read through all the comments but I thought I'd say, Hi! It's not just you. But also, I know your finances are tight and whatnot but you should really look into possibly seeing if a therapist who deals with people who have eating disorders might be right for you. I am/was bulimic in college and never would be the quasi-normal person I am today without some form of therapy. Even if it was just a support group for survivors of anorexia/bulimia you should really look into it.
Because honey you deserve to love you for you and not do this to yourself every single day.
I hope I don't sound like an evil bitch! I just know exactly what that feels like and it sucks donkey balls.
Take care of yourself.
Love the site!

Well. It would seem there are a lot of us! Cuz Y- I am right there with you...

I think about food all the time. Mine is more because I love food than because I hate it though. I have never been big on dieting or obsessing about my body size, except for a few brief insane periods.

One thing I have learned, though, is that I absolutely cannot have snacks of any sort in the house or I will eat them. So no chips, crackers, dried fruit, nuts, ice cream, cookies etc in the house ever. And despite this rule, I still hover near 200 lbs.

www.dietgirl.org - She's extrememly funny - if you don't already read her, you should go & check it out

I have bulimia with a phobia of being sick, which means I binge and then chicken out. I lost 36lbs last year and have put it all back on, how many times can you regain that weight before you feel completely useless? Reading MY thoughts, written by you though well, its 8.21am...maybe today WILL be the day. I already ate crusty bread with butter but that's not to say that I can't eat a happy lunch that actually makes me happy....good eating really makes me feel good, wonder why I hate myself so much I eat such crap day in and day out ( apart from the taste of it of course!!) I am coming to the US for 4 weeks in December, if I can lose 5lbs a MONTH I will be slim for my holiday......hells teeth surely that is possible, 5lbs a month, better than the humiliation of not fitting in that seat on the plane why do I keep putting it off??? Today WILL be the day Y, thankyou!! Helen.

You are definitely not the only one. And when I'm doing WW (like I am currently), I think about food even more. All day long I am constantly thinking about what I can and can't have, how many points are in that food, etc. I think about food all day long. What you wrote pretty much describes me perfectly. Thanks for not keeping it a draft.

(Also...cottage cheese on a sandwich instead of mayo? Ewwwww.)

I don't believe I've ever commented on your site, but I had to for this one... I had this exact same conversation with myself, in my head, the other night. I have always been the queen of being able to rationalize anything I put in my mouth... "Well, I'll just eat this McDonald's meal because I DID have that apple this morning, and that was healthy..." and so on and so forth. And I was always thinking about just NOT putting everything in my mouth, and how I could be healthier, and thinner, and happier. And it sucked big, huge donkey balls.

I finally ended up joining Weight Watchers, because it got to the point of, how many days can I wake up and stuff myself into my work pants and still pretend I feel good? I was driving myself insane!! And now that I'm on WW (like Jenie, above), I still think about food, all day long - how many points is that? If I eat that can I still have a treat later tonight? How many carrots can I have before I have to start counting them as points?! - but I suppose it's in a somewhat healthier way. But damn if it isn't still ridiculously annoying... having to analyze every morsel of anything that crosses my lips. Some days I seriously think that if I'm going to be thinking about food all day long anyways, and what I should and shouldn't eat, I'd rather be ENJOYING everything I eat, instead of cursing another baggie full of cucumber slices.

I can more than sympathize with you... it's such a pain in the ass, to not be able to just EAT WHAT YOU WANT. Ugh.

At least you dance aerobically... I'm lucky if I get my butt off the couch long enough to GET SOME MORE FREAKING CARROTS OUT OF THE FRIDGE.

I love you. Seriously! You amaze me when you write stuff like this. Because I read you and realize I am not the only one, then I read the comments and my tears start falling because there are SO many of us out there! I went to my doctor to ask for help, I was considering surgery, pills whatever it took. After talking with me for a while she told me she couldn't help me. She said I have an eating disorder and I needed to go to therapy and get my mental stuff together. I have been once, I don't think my therapist ever struggled with my problem. But I've only been once so I am going to give it more time and see what happens. Thank you Y for making me realize I am not alone, we are not alone, even when we are eating that brownie as fast as we can so nobody sees us stuffing it in our mouth. Thank you Y.

You certainly aren't alone. Over 80 people have already responded and I'm with you, too. I hate this obsession with weight and food. I hate using food as a drug. I hate being overweight. I've recently joined a gym and started exercising and I feel SO much better every time I go. But getting there? So effing hard. I haven't lost a pound yet. Not one. But dammit I will not give up. I don't want to waste more time on this. I don't want to miss taking my baby to the pool this summer because I feel to fat to wear a swimsuit. I don't want to miss another wedding because I have nothing to wear and can't stop crying. I hate this life, but I am determined to make it better. Starting NOW.

No, it's not just you. But sadly, I'm glad it's just not me.

After I left a friends house last night while we were watching Fast Food Nation, all I could think of was how good it all sounded, and if there was just something open on my walk home, the local gas station has twinkies will that do it, or maybe I could get a taxi and go to that Burger King down the road, and how fucking pathetic and sad it was that after watching a documentary that put fast food and bad food choices in general in such a bad light (as it should be) that all I wanted was that food. That horrible, greasy, apalling, nasty burgers and fries.

And I went home and ate flour tortilla chips in bed. Because I am weak.

Yep. Me too. Except now, there's less stomach to hold the food, and I have to make sure I eat my protein first. Even though I've had weight loss surgery - successful, I might add - I still have those food issues that got me up to 300 pounds in the first place. The only difference now is that I beat myself up over having 2 cookies instead of the whole bag. Proportionally, the 2 cookies take up the same percentage of space that the whole bag would've taken.

You're so not alone on this one.

I make deals with myself to get my ass out of bed in the moring about food....just get up... at lunch you are having leftovers....get up by the time you know it it will be supper...mmm make chicken on the grill tonight. I READ recipie books. For fun.

Nope. Not just you.

Depressing, isn't it.

I am the same exact way. I wake up and think "Hmmm, what's for breaksfast?" and the second I have breakfast, I start thinking about snack and then lunch and then another snack...I am obsessed with food! I am doing Weight Watchers and counting points, and it does seriously work, but I think it makes me a little too "into" food. If I go overboard one day, I consider the whole week blown and binge until the following Monday when I feel I can "restart" my diet. It's an evil, vicious circle that I hope to conquer!
Anyway, keep up the good work with the aerobic dancing! That has got to burn off at least a few of the calories from the Take 5 bar. :) You're doing more than I am to rid myself of this flabby ass.

It's not just you.

And dagnabbit. Now I want a Caramel Frappuccino.

Nope it's not only you. Even when I am eating well there is the constant thought as to whether I should be eating this or not. It is absurd. When I'm bad forget it.

Thoughts of food is just a constant nagging fixation. Can someone please find the off switch I am tired of listening to it.

You nailed it once again!

You know, I think every woman struggles with this, no matter their body type and size. However, I noticed it got much worse with me after I joined weight watchers. It's not always bad to have constant thoughts of food. When I would have "good days" and actually stick to my planned meals and foods, I felt really accomplished. It's the days when I disappoint myself that suck.

Oh no...you are not alone, add one more to the food obsessed group.

nope. me too. i wish i were one of the people who 'couldn't eat a thing' when they're hella stressed out. if that were the case i'd look like the olsen twins. instead i'm a stress eater and therefore very fat.

It's not just you. I'm obsessed with what I eat constantly, evey fing second of the day, every hour of my life. I hate it but I can't control it, I CAN'T! I do good for two or three days then the next day I eat everything, then I tell myself 'ok I won't eat after 7 and it will be ok' then of course, I eat after 7 then I tell myself 'ok self tomorrow is a new day', then tomorrow comes and I hit the fing chik'fil'a drive thru because it's ok, it's only breakfast, I'll eat a salad for lunch.....no it's not just you, Y, it's me too.
Sorry for the awful punctuation...or spelling...

Coming out of the "lurker woodworks" to tell you (as so many others have) that YOU ARE NOT ALONE! You are so wonderful but more importantly you are so real and so much like "us". You make the rest of us feel not so alone. Reading the comments that people write to you helps me get through the day because it's like they are saying it to me. Y, there are only 2 or 3 blogs that I honestly read daily and you, my dear, are one of them! HUGE HUGS from MA

Me too, and I've been this way ever since I was put on my first diet at age 6. Sad, sad, sad. When I am "doing good" and controlling what I'm eating, I dream about food while I sleep. I truly don't think I'll ever be able to stop this roller coaster of up and down about food and my weight.

Please know this is said with love - Overeaters Anonymous. 12-step group, life-changing! xo to you, Y!

Everyday, Sweetie, everyday. And now my life expectancy depends on it, and I STILL can't get my act together. Go figure.
Hang in there, Y.
love ya!
Annie

Oh, my, I see I'm not alone, either! I've gone through various stages of all kinds of eating anxiety/disorders/dieting starting at 13. I got better as I got older but I never let it go completely. I'm always thinking, "next time I'll..." It's nice to see how many people think the same way. I wish I had an answer.

I'm too busy wondering when I can have my next drink.

You are not going to believe this...but my weak self is eating a freaking frosty as I sit here reading this.

God...I need help!

*sigh*

Not just you. I'm currently eating everything in sight and trying to convince myself that I'm happy just eating and don't care that I'm fat. Trying.

Try living in New Orleans and not think about food constantly! Especially when your mom is always whipping up gumbo, or shrimp spaghetti, or shrimp stew, or boiled crawfish, or roast with gravy and peas! It's exhausting!

Or Lost Bread (which is sort of like french toast but more Cajun and much better), or banana pudding with vanilla wafers or fried everything including the best homemade french fries (my personal weakness) on earth!

Good thing I can't cook as good as she does because I'd weight 1,000 pounds.

uuggghhh! Switching cottage cheese for Mayo? uugghh! Just skip it Sister! Mayo is less carbs! Love you Y

Lots of comments here. I love food. I love eating it, talking about it, and heaven help me, I love cooking it. And ever since I stopped "cheating" with an eating disorder, my love of food is showing through my ever-increasing size.

My game plan is to try to cook healthier items that I'll enjoy and to be more active. We bought a push mower instead of a riding lawn mower. We bought bikes to ride. When did riding a bike become work instead of FUN?

Good luck to you!

ARgh totally the same and mostly at night. I can kid myself all day about not eating bad food (even though I think about it EVERY SINGLE MINUTE) but at night its like - but whats my reward for not eating junk food all day? Um, cheesecake, obviously. I can't get past it.