I've been struggling with what to do about this blog.
Today, I was tempted to delete it. I was very Soap Opera Serious about it too. I feel like this.. why keep it up when I can't seem to be able to translate my thoughts into words? I see it sitting here, with the same post up for a week and I'm literally unable to type the thoughts and stories that have collected in my brain for the past 7 days.
However, I know that if I were to delete or to make some dramatic statement such as "I'M QUITTING BLOGGING!" that I'll regret it the second I did it. If only because I love to have this place to write WHEN the mood strikes (which obviously isn't very often these days.)
Writing has always come easily (naturally?) to me. And please don't misinterpret that to mean that "I am a naturally a good writer." I know that I am not a good writer. And please don't misinterpret THAT to mean "I am a horrible, awful writer and am stupid and I should just go ahead and kill myself now!" What I mean is that it's something I love to do (in the same way that I love to hear myself talk), even THOUGH I know that I'm not incredibly good at it and although I have gone through periods of "writers block" I don't ever recall feeling as though "I will never be able to do this again!!"
But that's how I feel right at this moment. I am trying not to give it too much weight, because I realize that for the most part, the reason that I'm having a hard time with this whole writing thing is because of the low thyroid (Ha! You thought I was going to get through an entire post without saying it! YOU LOSE!) At the same time, I can't help but wonder if after almost 6 years is simply long enough and it's time to move on.
(Am I really having a "blogging crisis" or am I fabricating this to BOOST MY RATINGS!? Troll sez: RATINGS PLOY!)
(Clearly, I am not ready to let that go yet, if only because it's my second most favorite insult on ever written on this blog, the first being "WINNERS DO THE MATH!")
Please don't leave comments asking me not to quit. If you do, I will virtually hold my finger up to your mouth and say "SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH." This isn't something I need to be talked out. It's just me, thinking out loud and trying to break this writing funk that I am in. The truth is that I don't think I could ever delete this blog. There are too many stories that I want to remember and deleting it would be like deleting a tiny little piece of my soul. (See! I told you! Soap Opera Serious!) However, if I don't have some kind of mental break through in which I am once again able to sit down and write about my life (AND NOT ABOUT MY THYROID.) I may have to walk away for a bit.
Here is where I ask for your help.
Dear You,
Ask me a question.
In doing so, you may help to unlock my brain and save me from this Blogpression. (Oh YES I DID.)
Love,
Me
p.s. if I get a lot of questions, there's a very good chance that I won't be able to answer every single one. And it won't mean I didn't like your question or that I'm an asshole. It'll just mean that I'm overwhelmed, so please don't take it personally.
p.s.s. I'm kind of hoping that someone will ask me about my thoughts on Mary Hart, because ever since watching a clip of her and Marie Osmond on youtube I can't seem to get her fake laugh out of my head and I may have gone so far as to google "Mary Hart is annoying" to see if the internet feels the same way about her as I do.
I look forward to your questions.
UPDATE**
Woah, that's a lot of questions! No more questions necessary as I am pretty sure I'll be answering questions for the next 3 months. THANK YOU!







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