I spent my lunch break at the gym today.
I ran. I did the elliptical.
I did free weights. Squats. Push ups. Crunches. Leg lifts.
I was drenched in Sweet, Glorious Sweat.
As I left the gym, I was PUMPED UP.
I had burned a ton of calories. I felt strong. I felt healthy. I felt like I could kick your ass and then her ass and his ass. I think I could have kicked the ass of the entire world.
I got in my car, Jay-Z blasting in my ear. I was like IN YOUR FACE, DISEASES THAT TRY TO KEEP ME DOWN.
And then, I drove by McDonalds.
"The McRib is back!" It said.
Next thing you know, I'm sitting in my car, BBQ sauce dripping in between my fingers as I stuff my face with FAKE RIB MEAT.
As I was cleaning up the mess on my face with a wet wipe, I began to feel pretty disgusted with myself. I felt like crying, puking and kicking my own ass all at the same time.
I didn't have to tell anyone about this. I could have thrown the evidence away and went about my day as if it never happened. However, I need to be accountable for the way I treat my body, what with all of the diseases and disorders I'm trying to keep under control. I realize it's okay to occasionally indulge in Not So Good For You Food. But honestly, with the amount of weight I have to lose and the fact that I'm pre-diabetic, doesn't give me much license to EAT A MCRIB IN MY CAR AFTER A WORKOUT.
This can't ever happen again, self. YOU HEAR ME?







I can't begin to tell you how much I relate to this post. Don't beat yourself up though. I am SO inspired by how hard you work out. I am such a wimp at the gym and I hate it.