Losing weight when your body is fighting itself isn't easy. In fact, it's been harder than words could ever express.
I finally have managed to get under 200 pounds-- that was a huge victory. But the battle is not over. I still have at least another 40-50 pounds to lose. (And I do mean "have to." Not "want to" or "would like to." H-A-V-E to.) I know that it's going to be even harder still. I know I'll have to continue to make adjustments to my diets. I know I'll have to be even more disciplined. I know I'll have to workout harder than I've been doing. I know there are a lot of challenges that lie ahead.
I'm ready for them. I am excited to see what this year holds for me physically. I'm hoping this is the year I can stop taking Metf*ormin. I'm hoping this is the year I can run a 5K or a 10K or A HALF MARATHON. I *feel* like anything is possible if I put my mind to it, but the reality is that this body of mine is kind of an asshole. If I don't eat correctly, if I don't continue to work out regularly, things could take a turn for the worse in the blink of an eye. I know that whore prostitute, Diabetes, is lurking around the corner, waiting for me to give up on myself so she can have her way with me. This is what keeps me motivated to do the right things for my body.
I'm not going to let that whore win.
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It's taken me 2 years to lose 38 pounds.
If I dwell on that, I would cry. I would give up. I can not dwell on that.
I have to believe in myself and my ability to Beat This Shit. Because I'm tired of This Shit.
(I know. I sound like a broken record. Trust me, I FEEL like a broken record. I try to keep my posting about this stuff to a minimum. The thing is-- this is my life. This is what I live every single day and writing it out helps. Especially because I know that the people who read here will be here, cheering me on, offering me advice and that has been INVALUABLE to me. I hope you understand.)
(I feel like I need to point out the fact that the most recent picture is a bit misleading. The mirror at the gym makes me look much thinner than I am. I definitely am not as thin as it looks. I almost hesitated in posting, but I wanted to show the difference in my body's shape.)









What a phenomenal change you've made.....kudos to you Yvonne for your strength and hard work!!!
May 2010 bring good things to you and your family.
Hugs
Fi
xxxxx