I’m totally crying again


Isn’t my daughter beautiful?
I didn’t think I was capable of loving her this much.
Oh my God. How I love her.

I get absolutely no sleep, I hardly have time to shower, I don’t leave the house much, I smell like milk and throw up most of the time, I can’t finish a meal, I’m fat… And yet I can’t stop smiling.

Who would have known. I never would have imagined it would be this good. I don’t know if I ever honestly expressed how terrified I was that I wasn’t going to be able to handle this. I thought I would be miserable having to get up all night to feed her, I thought I’d be crying everyday wondering what I had done.
It’s just the opposite. I feel like I’m floating on air. I’m that happy.


I don’t think anyone will ever understand how much this baby has changed me for the better. I feel so complete. I feel at complete peace with my life. Even though we are facing some tough times financially, even though I’m scared to death as to what is going to happen in the next few months… all I have to do is look at my daughter, at my handsome boys, at my incredible husband and I know in my heart that everything is going to work out and we will be okay.

I know, I KNOW. I’m a sappy mess. I bet you all wish I’d talk about vaginas and bloody discharge again, don’t you? ADMIT IT, YOU DO!

23 thoughts on “I’m totally crying again

  1. Chelle

    That is really wonderful, I’m glad to hear you are so blissfully happy. Are you sure it’s not just exhaustion? ha ha.
    Go ahead and be a sappy mess, babies are supposed to make you feel all mushy. You’ll be back to talking about vaginas in no time.

  2. Buzz

    She is a doll! But, correct me if I’m wrong, doesn’t she look like she’s got some kind of secret? What’s she got up her sleeve??

  3. Andreah

    Can I just tell you how unbelieveably GORGEOUS she is? seriously, your whole famn damily is a sight for sore eyes and I am thrilled knowing you are so thrilled. Big Ups to you!!!

  4. QC

    You know why you’re floating on air, don’t you?
    No more amniotic fluid. No more torso-being-utilized-as-studio-apartment. Damn. That’ll make ANYONE feel lighter.
    But all that aside? She rocks. She is amazing. She is so very, very beautiful.
    Smile away.

  5. Talia

    She is so so beautiful, Yvonne! And she is so lucky to have you as her mom. She is going to be one strong lady! 🙂 I’m so glad things are going well. Best wishes for continued happiness through the days of poo and vaginal discharge!

  6. Mona

    She’s soooooooooooooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeee :)) Look at that face, that chubby arms! That chubby cutest cheeks 🙂
    I’m so happy that you’re happy.

  7. kim

    i’m glad you’re doing so good. and i like the sappyness. i just have to seriously stop tearing up in the office every morning when i “check on” you guys (have a box of kleenex on my desk now..).

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