I can feel the love.

While I was putting away the gift I just recieved from Etherian for my baby, I started to reflect on the kindness of people I’ve met through blogging.
When I was at the lowest point in my life recently, suffering from depression, self injury and other mental health issues, I was amazed at the kindness of people I’ve never met who read my blog. I would get countless emails of people who had been through the same thing, telling me their stories and encouraging me to be strong and that things would get better. People would send me their phone numbers and tell me to call anytime I needed to talk. I was humbled at the kindness and well wishes of people.
When I got better, when I finally started to learn to love myself and to be happy again, people rejoiced with me. They were happy for me. I have saved the emails I had recieved during that time and I never plan on deleting them.
More recently, I’ve been overwhelmed with support for this totally unplanned pregnancy. I have recieved gifts, cards and emails. I do not take this kindness and thoughfulness lightly at all. I value every well wish, every gift, every kind word. They are all little tokens of love and I can’t even put into words how much they mean to me.
It really hit me today that some of the people who read this blog geniunely care about me and my well being and I don’t want another day to go by without saying thank you. If you only knew how amazing it feels to have your support.
I’ve started a little storage box for baby items, and everything in there has been giving to me by someone who reads this site. Some are people I’ve met and I call friends, some are people I don’t even know who have sent things with little notes telling me how my writing has touched them in some way. Not one thing in there is from someone I know in “real life”. That touches me and I truly am grateful for each and everyone who has shown me they care, whether it be a comment wishing me and my family well, or the generousity of a gift for this little baby girl we’re expecting. I am grateful, my family is grateful and I just wanted everyone to know how I am feeling right this moment.
Several people I’ve met through blogging have hurt me and broken my heart and I have held on to that feeling for too long and neglected the good people out there. The people who, inspite of all of my faults and imperfections, have continued to bless me with friendship and support.
I’m so glad I finally learned how to let the negitivity NOT affect me and to focus on what is good. And the love, support and care I’ve recieved from so many of you who read this is what is GOOD. Truly.
And I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

13 thoughts on “I can feel the love.

  1. judi

    I too am amazed how kind and generous people can be. Add me to the list of those who only want you to be happy. Because we really do love you and care about you and your family. 😉

  2. etherian

    I am always happy to see the good that comes from interracting with people over the ‘net. I’m thankful for all the wonderful folks I’ve met through blogging. *hugs* I’m glad that you’re someone I consider a positive influence, for your forthrightness and strength, your love for your family, and your sense of humor.

  3. girl

    I love being able to give to other people when I’m in the financial situation to do so. I’ll be getting your stuff tomorrow and will try to get it out on my day off (Wednesday). xoxox

  4. Hed

    Yvonne, you’ve made me laugh, you’ve made me cry, and you’ve made me think. You have a great mind, and you deserve every good wish you receive. I’m glad to hear that you are doing well emotionally right now. Pregnancy can be rough, and we do go up and down with it. You are a trooper, though! Keep up the good thoughts, and when you feel like crap, just remember all of us who care about you!
    Hope everything with the rest of your pregnancy goes really well. Congratulations on your little girl! They really are a lot of fun!
    -H

  5. Adelle

    It is amazing the people we meet out here… But these people really care! And you seem so sweet and funny and crazy at the same time – How can we not care?

  6. HR Lady

    32 is not AGED -I hope- I’ll be 32 next Tuesday and am desperate for another baby, eventhough my boy will be 9 soon enough. Unfortunately, insurance at hubby’s job is $200/wk. An unplanned pregnancy might be a big blessing for us, so that instead of worrying about how we’ll afford the baby, we would just have one, because we’re supposed to. The first chance I get, I’ll be sending a gift through your registry, so be sure to keep it updated. You seem like a very sweet person. Chin up, ‘k?

  7. meg

    Nice post…wish the best for you. I love hearing about pregnancy (PLEASE let me get there myself one day…but at least I found the man!). I wish I had time to follow what you were doing more, but this was a really nice post and I wish you the best…really! You are such a good writer!

  8. johnny

    We all go through the same experiences in life and think we are the only ones who have these experiences. When someone is brave enough like you to let it all hang out, people connect.

  9. sarah

    Hey Y. just wanted to ask for your snail mail address cause i make teddy bears for the little ones..with a special thing in them. like a piece of silk with their name on it for good luck or something whimsical or an herby bear with like chamomile and lavender for the sleeps…if you’d like the beautiful gabby to have one, just e-mail me back. or if not…e-mail me n e way. love you!!

  10. sarah

    Hey Y. just wanted to ask for your snail mail address cause i make teddy bears for the little ones..with a special thing in them. like a piece of silk with their name on it for good luck or something whimsical or an herby bear with like chamomile and lavender for the sleeps…if you’d like the beautiful gabby to have one, just e-mail me back. or if not…e-mail me n e way. love you!!

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