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I have tried to start a “100 things” about me list for the past two years that I’ve been blogging.
The problem? I seem to get past “I have a vagina”. (Which happens to be #1.)
So, since it’s been over 2 years and I can’t seem to write the damn list, I think that I’ll do a “100 things about me, according to the people that read my blog.”
That’s right, beyotches, I’m going to let YOU write my “100 things” list. I know you feel all honored ‘n shit. Admit it, you do.
Leave your “thing” in my comments and as soon as I have 100, I’ll make the damn list.
(p.s. Don’t be all kissyassass either. I mean, you can totally say nice things about me (i.e.her boobs make me horny because they’re so asslike.) but, yo, keep it real. (i.e. “if she’d only stop eating flaming hot cheetos and dipping bisquits in honey, she’d lose the weight she always cries about)
I trust you will NOT disappoint me.

Where do I start?
How about I start by thanking Sphinxy for helping me with EVERYTHING and for making me a new design with Jay Mohr, whom everyone knows I love and who “likes me alot” right back and who is REALLY HOT. Oh how I love him. She really is too good to me. She still is working on a few things, but she said I can post, so A’ POSTIN’ I GO.
Second? Thank you for all of the emails. People actually LIKE me, that’s insane! Thank you.
Now, let’s just get the very CHEESY new url out of the way, ok? Because I know you’re thinking, “holy crap, she’s gone all soft on us!”
I can’t help it. My little baby girl has turned me into one big ball of cheesy, sweet goodness. I’m like a 13 year old girl in love for the first time who can’t shutup about how TOTALLY in love she is. Ma’Melly said “I don’t even know who you are anymore”. And I have to agree. My baby girl has changed me. For the better, believe me.
It was time to change. I’m no longer “confused.” I’m no longer sad. Or empty. Or angry. Or bitter. Or any of those things that the old blog reminded me of. SEE? CHEEEEEEEEEEESE.
I will admit that the thought of changing was forced on me, but once “that” happened, I realised that yes, it was time to move on to a new chapter. (Although I will FULLY admit that I was sad I’d lose my 1,000 hits a day. Yeah, I care about that. YOU DO TOO, admit it!)
Oh for CHRISSAKES. IT’S A DOMAIN CHANGE! It’s not like I had a heart attack and had to contemplate life, I JUST CHANGED URLS!!! I know, I KNOW THIS… but it feels good to move on, to change, to grow.
THE CHEESE MUST STOP. MAKE IT STOP BEFORE I KILL MYSELF CHOKING ON CHEESE. please?
Feel free to link me, blogroll me, whatever, just refer to me simply as “Y” or link to the title of the blog “Joy Unexpected” No references to “the old” place would be greatly appreciated.
Ok now, If you found me… SAY SOMETHING ALREADY.

While I was putting away the gift I just recieved from Etherian for my baby, I started to reflect on the kindness of people I’ve met through blogging.
When I was at the lowest point in my life recently, suffering from depression, self injury and other mental health issues, I was amazed at the kindness of people I’ve never met who read my blog. I would get countless emails of people who had been through the same thing, telling me their stories and encouraging me to be strong and that things would get better. People would send me their phone numbers and tell me to call anytime I needed to talk. I was humbled at the kindness and well wishes of people.
When I got better, when I finally started to learn to love myself and to be happy again, people rejoiced with me. They were happy for me. I have saved the emails I had recieved during that time and I never plan on deleting them.
More recently, I’ve been overwhelmed with support for this totally unplanned pregnancy. I have recieved gifts, cards and emails. I do not take this kindness and thoughfulness lightly at all. I value every well wish, every gift, every kind word. They are all little tokens of love and I can’t even put into words how much they mean to me.
It really hit me today that some of the people who read this blog geniunely care about me and my well being and I don’t want another day to go by without saying thank you. If you only knew how amazing it feels to have your support.
I’ve started a little storage box for baby items, and everything in there has been giving to me by someone who reads this site. Some are people I’ve met and I call friends, some are people I don’t even know who have sent things with little notes telling me how my writing has touched them in some way. Not one thing in there is from someone I know in “real life”. That touches me and I truly am grateful for each and everyone who has shown me they care, whether it be a comment wishing me and my family well, or the generousity of a gift for this little baby girl we’re expecting. I am grateful, my family is grateful and I just wanted everyone to know how I am feeling right this moment.
Several people I’ve met through blogging have hurt me and broken my heart and I have held on to that feeling for too long and neglected the good people out there. The people who, inspite of all of my faults and imperfections, have continued to bless me with friendship and support.
I’m so glad I finally learned how to let the negitivity NOT affect me and to focus on what is good. And the love, support and care I’ve recieved from so many of you who read this is what is GOOD. Truly.
And I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I love this woman.
She has the mad haiku skillz
and the pretty feet.
Was that even a haiku? Oh well, I tried and I did it all for her because I want you to love her too.

Dear people who have blogs and use the phrase “If you think this post is about you it probably is”,

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My first post is dedicated to this girl!  She hooked me up and set this whole thing up for me! You rock Statia. 

Thank you so much for all your help with this, I appreciate your time and help more than you know.  I’ve been wanting to start a blog for a while now, but I am computer illiterate.  I mentioned to her that I wanted to start a blog and she graciously offered to help! She has been so good to me. I am so grateful!